The Courage of Children: Boston and Beyond XXXI
Award-winning essays on courage written by sixth-eight grade students participating in The Max Warburg Courage Curriculum.
Award-winning essays on courage written by sixth-eight grade students participating in The Max Warburg Courage Curriculum.
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Oisin Guthrie<br />
Merrill Hawkins, Teacher<br />
<strong>The</strong> Park School, Brookline, MA<br />
It was a Saturday, a beautiful day. I felt good <strong>and</strong> excited for my hockey game<br />
that afternoon. <strong>The</strong> day was going perfectly fine until I was getting ready to<br />
go to my hockey game. I was in a rush. I filled up my water bottle, my bag was<br />
ready, <strong>and</strong> all I needed was my hockey stick. I looked all over the house for<br />
it, <strong>and</strong> I couldn’t find it. I was getting really anxious that I couldn’t find my<br />
hockey stick. I had no hockey stick for my game! I started feeling really badly,<br />
like I was going to throw up. My mom said, “Guess you can’t play.’’ My step dad<br />
said, “One <strong>of</strong> his teammates will have an extra stick.” So I went to the game<br />
with my dad. While my dad was driving me to the game, I felt really sick. I<br />
saw that there was a plastic bag in the back seat, so I grabbed it just in case I<br />
threw up. When my dad <strong>and</strong> I were in the parking lot, I couldn’t go to the rink<br />
because <strong>of</strong> my anxiety, so my dad said I could skip the game <strong>and</strong> just watch my<br />
team play. I watched my team play <strong>and</strong> felt really bad about not playing. I also<br />
felt like I was letting my parents down for not playing in the game. After the<br />
game was over we returned home. I didn’t feel sick once I returned home<br />
for some reason.<br />
<strong>The</strong> week went on. I didn’t feel like I did the previous weekend. I had two<br />
hockey games the next weekend, one on Saturday <strong>and</strong> one on Sunday. On<br />
Saturday, my hockey game was at 4:30. I was fine all day until thirty minutes<br />
before–I felt the same thing that I had last weekend. My step dad told me to<br />
lay down, so I did. I didn’t feel any better. He told me, “We can skip it today.<br />
We’ll go tomorrow.” I felt really guilty that I didn’t play. On Sunday, I woke<br />
up early for my game. I didn’t feel good again, but my step dad pushed me to<br />
play, so I did. In the car, I still didn’t feel good. I walked into the rink. Once<br />
I saw my team, I immediately felt better. I got on the ice, <strong>and</strong> I was fine.<br />
“If you have anxiety<br />
or something else<br />
that is bothering<br />
you, it’s always good<br />
to tell someone<br />
<strong>and</strong> they might<br />
just help you.”<br />
came down with the school counselor. <strong>The</strong>y talked with me <strong>and</strong> my mom for a<br />
minute before bringing me upstairs. We set a goal to stay at school for the first<br />
period. My mom promised not to go far. Once I got upstairs I saw all <strong>of</strong> my<br />
friends saying, “What’s up?” I felt fine for the rest <strong>of</strong> the day. <strong>The</strong> rest <strong>of</strong> the<br />
week I felt fine too.<br />
When I look back at that time, I think it was just opening that door that was<br />
holding me back from things I love to do. I love hockey <strong>and</strong> seeing my friends<br />
at school. My definition <strong>of</strong> courage is not being afraid <strong>of</strong> something that’s<br />
holding you back, like how my anxiety was holding me back from things I love<br />
to do. I learned that I have support all around me, <strong>and</strong> so you do. I still have<br />
the feeling that I’m going to throw up sometimes, but I just brush it <strong>of</strong>f. If you<br />
have anxiety or something else that is bothering you, it’s always good to tell<br />
someone <strong>and</strong> they might just help you.<br />
That Monday I woke up to go to school. For some reason, I had that feeling<br />
again, like at my hockey games. I told my mom, <strong>and</strong> she said, “You can take<br />
the day <strong>of</strong>f.” So that’s what I did. On Tuesday, I woke early because I had my<br />
tutor before school. Once I got in the building I didn’t feel well. I was having<br />
another panic attack. After trying to calm me down <strong>and</strong> taking a walk outside,<br />
my tutor texted my mom to pick me up. That day we figured that my anxiety<br />
was really bad, so my mom got an appointment to see my doctor. I told the<br />
doctor about my anxiety, <strong>and</strong> he gave me this pill that would help. He also<br />
encouraged me to go to school the next day. On Thursday my mom brought<br />
me to school. I didn’t want to leave her side, but she wasn’t allowed inside<br />
the school because <strong>of</strong> COVID. So the front desk called my teacher, <strong>and</strong> she<br />
<strong>The</strong> <strong>Courage</strong> <strong>of</strong> <strong>Children</strong>: <strong>Boston</strong> <strong>and</strong> <strong>Beyond</strong><br />
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