The Courage of Children: Boston and Beyond XXXI
Award-winning essays on courage written by sixth-eight grade students participating in The Max Warburg Courage Curriculum.
Award-winning essays on courage written by sixth-eight grade students participating in The Max Warburg Courage Curriculum.
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Kai Geraghty-Sari<br />
Mary Budrose, Teacher<br />
Proctor School, Topsfield, MA<br />
<strong>Courage</strong> will always be something that is not acquired easily, struggling to<br />
speak out against others <strong>and</strong> attempting things other people wouldn’t even<br />
dare to think <strong>of</strong>. In all honesty, I can’t think <strong>of</strong> myself as courageous, but I<br />
do think I was able to do something a lot <strong>of</strong> people my age, or anyone at all,<br />
couldn’t admit.<br />
Last summer I had started falling deeper into social media, <strong>and</strong> I began to<br />
learn <strong>and</strong> find out about more <strong>and</strong> more things that I had never seen or<br />
even heard <strong>of</strong> before. I enjoyed being able to look more into other people’s<br />
thoughts <strong>and</strong> worries. As I kept venturing through I discovered something<br />
called the LGBTQIA+ Community. I hadn’t heard <strong>of</strong> it before, so it made<br />
me wonder. Over time, I gradually got more <strong>and</strong> more interested in learning<br />
all about the different sexualities <strong>and</strong> genders that the community had held<br />
within them, acknowledging <strong>and</strong> noticing the differences between everything.<br />
At first it was confusing <strong>and</strong> felt impossible to comprehend, but I eventually<br />
became used to the idea. I hadn’t worried about it until I learned the word<br />
“transgender.” This is someone who did not identify with their gender given to<br />
them at birth that corresponded with their sex. That word was nothing to me<br />
when I first learned the definition, but soon I felt even more connected <strong>and</strong><br />
stuck on that single phrase.<br />
I was born with female body parts, <strong>and</strong> for ten years I was seen as a girl. I<br />
felt entirely incapable <strong>of</strong> being transgender, but something just told me<br />
I wasn’t a girl. I couldn’t st<strong>and</strong> the eager feeling to figure it all out. Since<br />
I knew most <strong>of</strong> the genders already I had thought I might be outside the<br />
binary genders, non-binary. Non-binary is typically someone who only uses<br />
they/them pronouns, but there are other pronouns under the non-binary<br />
umbrella as well. I decided that’s what my “gender” was, <strong>and</strong> told my two or<br />
three friends about it. At some point I did everything in my ability to deny<br />
that I was a boy. I didn’t want to have to change everything, I will admit. I’ve<br />
always been terrified <strong>of</strong> what others would think <strong>of</strong> me. I denied it for a while.<br />
I went with they/them pronouns even though I was constantly misgendered<br />
without others even realizing. My mom already knew at this point, <strong>and</strong> I was<br />
fully prepared to stay as I was so that I wouldn’t feel embarrassed or nervous<br />
anymore, but it kept coming back. It kept making me stress continuously over<br />
my name. Everyone knew me as my deadname, <strong>and</strong> it was unbearable. Even if<br />
I hadn’t chosen my name, it bothered me so much. Of course everyone called<br />
me that, yet it still hurt hearing it. When my mom brought me to get my hair<br />
“To them I had a new<br />
name. To me I had finally<br />
found my real name.”<br />
cut shorter than it had ever been before, I was excited. Unfortunately I soon<br />
came to realize that no matter what I looked like, I couldn’t help but only<br />
ever feel feminine. All I could say is that I was fed up at that point, waiting<br />
for myself to catch up with the fact that I was a boy. So I came to a conclusion<br />
that I shouldn’t have or ever will care about others opinions, <strong>and</strong> I didn’t<br />
need to. Luckily enough my oblivious self finally realized that if I’m going<br />
to be stuck with myself my entire life, I’d rather not spend it all worrying<br />
about others. Soon I came out to the same friends I had before, <strong>and</strong> they<br />
reacted respectfully. That’s all I needed. Some time later my mom eventually<br />
knew, <strong>and</strong> so did everyone at my school when we finally came back from<br />
summer break. To them I had a new name. To me I had finally found my real<br />
name. Honestly I still don’t think I have courage, but I know I was able to be<br />
courageous that one time. If someone ever makes you feel uncomfortable for<br />
being you, then they are a million times further from finding themselves than<br />
you are.<br />
<strong>The</strong> <strong>Courage</strong> <strong>of</strong> <strong>Children</strong>: <strong>Boston</strong> <strong>and</strong> <strong>Beyond</strong><br />
Volume <strong>XXXI</strong><br />
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