Bad Indians: A Tribal Memoir

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Friday: Vocabulario During the weekly quiz, I pause, my pencil hovering over the blanks that are waiting for me to fill them in with the sweat of my nightly memorization. Every time I learn a Spanish word I want to know the Esselen word it replaced. Between my teeth I clench the Unholy Trinity: English, Spanish, Esselen: Water. Agua. Asanax. Bear. Oso. Koltala. Earth. La tierra. Madsa-no. I laugh, and la profesora looks up from her desk, asks with her eyes if I need help. I shake my head, glance down again at the page of words to be translated. How can I shape a third language to describe a second language that destroyed the first language? This language: blade to slice my tongue. Esta lengua: un beso como un cuchillo. It will take ten more years, but I will say it: Nishwelel, nishkumal: sever our bonds, tear the gags from our mouths. Remember us. Learning How to Fish: A Language Homecoming Journal
And he saith unto them, Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men. And they straightway left their nets, and followed him. —Matthew 4:19–20 Monday 8 a.m.: coffee 9 a.m.: blessing 10 a.m.: welcome. “Give a person a fish, and she’ll eat for the day,” Leanne tells us, “but teach her to fish and she’ll feed herself and her family forever.” I sit in a classroom at UC Berkeley and take notes. I can’t believe I’m here. Can’t believe I’ve done this to myself again: an intensive summer language program. Didn’t I go crazy enough the first time around, with Spanish? Teach me to fish. Yeah, right. The Franciscan missionaries assigned to Alta California loved their metaphors too. Father Serra wrote of California’s Indigenous inhabitants that “before long, they will be caught in the apostolic and evangelical net,” likening himself and his fellow priests to the Fishers of Men called upon by Christ to spread the Gospel. I’ve always been a bit bothered by this image, however; the comparison between
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© 2013 by Deborah A. Miranda All r
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P.O. Box 9145, Berkeley, CA 94709 (
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Table of Contents Title Page Copyri
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Chairwoman, Ohlone/Costanoan-Essele
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DeAnna Rivera, Wendy Teeters, Kimbe
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Introduction California Is a Story
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heels and tight dresses. She’d tr
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Theirs was the kind of desire that
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ut who are we, when we have survive
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the way Tonto spoke if you wanted t
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as a truth. As a whole. Even if the
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South while simultaneously requirin
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those giant dioramas behind glass),
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video project must have been a lot
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where voices can speak after long a
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Los Pájaros based on writings by J
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ut the women were caught with Spani
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When arrows were raining everywhere
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Deby Miranda, fourth grade picture
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Tell them to dig a big round basin
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Mission San Miguel campanario, circ
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lusty songs out beyond the padres
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Discipline Due to their animal-like
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customs.” Luckily, the Spaniards
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Also known in Spanish as azotes (st
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striking force. The whips might be
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Wooden club used to strike quickly;
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tuned-up souls. These reconditioned
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grandchildren, was never legally an
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Padre Figure 11. Franciscan mission
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we were his beloved and abused floc
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Dear Vicenta
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Well, I shouldn’t complain. Those
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Vicenta, I keep thinking of how you
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Mission to the chapel in Monterey,
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Not conquered. Nimasianexelpasaleki
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Meadows knew she was a valuable res
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sacred, and we have a right to spea
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Isabel Mar. [19]37 understands “j
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amongst the men, passed as just men
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seek every kind of way to feed them
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his plump arm, swung him around acr
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Bridges: Secularization Post- 1836-
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Wear their heavy aprons, high-necke
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Ularia’s Curse “Pero la maldici
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“Will you miss us, River?” she
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and Santa Clara, and as editor of t
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From The Argonauts of ’Forty-nine
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or near the goldfields in ’49, sh
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In 1857 the California State Legisl
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So when I see this woman’s image,
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Exorbitant amounts of money are mad
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Ms. Hawthorne shared that this phot
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have so many questions. What kind o
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as humiliating and opprobrious. It
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face. Oh let black smoke rise above
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ecognizable. Old News 1. It is diff
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with great desperation. 2. Sacramen
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3. San Francisco Bulletin, January
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killed one Indian, wounded several
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Jacinta’s Medicine Jacinta Gonzal
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They pierce the body like knives, l
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including my great-grandfather Tom
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If there was a connection to the mi
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in Monterey, was working to raise i
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Fr. Casanova’s Mass at Carmel, 18
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Mission register, baptism of Tomás
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María Inés García, probably on h
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Tomás Santos Miranda died in 1943.
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clearly were meant to keep rabbits
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a cookout. It reminds me of how my
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to turn tail and run for the hills.
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His hands—or rather, the one hand
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In 1877 it had been 107 years since
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through the infinite varieties of C
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yet still have an identity and comm
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Jr., circa 1981 I want Tom’s voic
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Also beneath the surface of this st
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a hell of a—he said, “I’m goi
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and of course, since he was old, hi
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stealing horses, drinking, and caro
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José Robles, circa 1879 Recently,
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would clear up and the air was clea
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“Well then, I can’t tell you ve
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two. I took my first drink when I l
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He Told Me, “Have You Ever Been i
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He says, “How high do you want to
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play cards all the time, but I didn
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I says, “You’re Slavonian, aren
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One morning George came up to the h
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I thought, “All these bastards ha
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The government can do some funny th
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never heard anything, Dad. They had
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out behind the church instead of as
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flogging in silence; oh renowned Yo
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dark civilization we endure. Teach
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though. I have arranged to talk to
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gangrene of the leg. I immediately
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ecord. 3. The ulcer on Juan’s leg
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John Peabody Harrington, April 29,
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Teheyapami Home Achiska: 1961-Prese
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luminous in the dark air, she is hu
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to me for that easy solution. My fa
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My lips are pressed so tightly toge
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But Buddy kisses my mama in a way t
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Page 229 and 230: want, though. Innocence; the almost
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Page 235 and 236: In that cusp of time on the mountai
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Page 241 and 242: Eventually the woman who gave birth
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Page 247 and 248: asked, pointing to two girls runnin
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Page 253 and 254: After a second he asks, “Is this
Page 255 and 256: times” without success. I know he
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Page 263 and 264: of arms and legs, mind and humor, h
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Page 273 and 274: to apply that first year. After all
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Page 285 and 286: Mantuxite, mantuxite, It is true, i
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Page 289 and 290: Do you remember us? Do we look like
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Page 293 and 294: My father was pleased when I progre
Page 295 and 296: My father liked to cook. He was ver
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Alcohol worked on him like an evil
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even changed her surname to Ramirez
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eucalyptus trees, dust, and sweat.
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leather belt from his waist, doubli
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That was the first time I really un
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very end, our father was alone. Al
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one, take a breath, swim to the nex
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I need a song with guts. I need a s
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“I have substantial evidence that
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pair of socks in Southern Californi
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green suitcase up and over curbs an
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are, hairy skin gaped. Ay! Well, ha
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He risked a quick glance up at her
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Just as he straightened fully, suit
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confused but very happy mojo. He st
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ought a bag of cookies from the Hos
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(see the sample report to learn the
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Mission Project Worksheet Name ____
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Please, parents, try to refrain fro
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Dear 4th Grade Students and Parents
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fun and I can’t wait to see what
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World” “Art and literature and
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drawn toward a mysterious light whi
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landmark is Pico Blanco or Mt. Diab
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constructions that surrounded it, t
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Places of power are not tread on li
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stocks, flogging, whatever the padr
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Hand-drawn map of El Potrero, as it
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In 1852, seven years after Fructuos
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died unexpectedly in 1893, at the a
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years were ended with drunkenness.
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Perhaps it seems strange to others,
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uglier alternative, suggested some
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looked at us, but it didn’t come
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(probably six feet tall at the most
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foot—pale cream, clean, nothing g
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from.” These are stories worth fo
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dandy; Al Miranda, Keta Miranda, an
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Smithsonian Institution, 1907-1957,
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most missions had two priests worki
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and Carmel: Eden by the Sea (Guilfo
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About the Author Deborah A. Miranda
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About Heyday Heyday is an independe
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Alice Guild; Walter & Elise Haas Fu
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