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A SHADOWED SEASON<br />
Sharon Hashimoto<br />
ISSUE 15 | SPRING 2013<br />
Etsuko could still count, but she needed to keep track with her fingers.<br />
Sometimes she was distracted by the age spots and broken cuticles. Did it<br />
really matter if ninety-six came after ninety-eight? She’d been waiting so<br />
long for Masayuki’s return that the numbers didn’t really seem to matter.<br />
Mostly, it was just a way to pass the hours. Hard enough to know the day of<br />
the week and when to expect her daughter’s visit.<br />
Etsuko was losing her English words syllable by syllable. When she spoke, it<br />
was in choppy simple sentences. Bumbye, she counseled herself. Just wait.<br />
Once in a while she could trick herself into remembering. What was she<br />
supposed to do, what was she supposed to say to get somebody’s attention?<br />
The white people who ran around in brightly colored scrubs were so rushed<br />
and busy. They would stare at her, watching her lips, then wrinkle their own<br />
eyebrows. Last night, there’d been the nurse who just frowned, shook her<br />
head and walked away. I’ll count to one hundred to give them a chance,<br />
Etsuko reasoned.<br />
There was a time when she could sniff the air, feeling the hot sun on her<br />
shoulders and know that she would soon be harvesting the papayas and figs<br />
in the yard. At her house, mounded globes of lichee nuts would litter the<br />
ground. Such a small tree, but with so many limbs bending with the fruit.<br />
How Masayuki loved their sweet white flesh, piling high the shiny almondshaped<br />
seeds. How she warned the boy not to eat so much. All he knew was<br />
that lichee nuts tasted good on his tongue, cooling in all the hot Hawai’i sun.<br />
She shivered. In this air-conditioned place, her body was forgetting the shift<br />
of seasons, when her joints would ache and grind with the threat of rain. The<br />
mustachioed man in the navy suit on the TV news station always spoke in<br />
the same tone of voice even though there were pictures of plane crashes or<br />
yellow suns with the day’s expected high temperature. “Thank-you, may<br />
I…”—the polite terms she once used were slipping away. Mostly Etsuko<br />
grunted when the Nurse’s Aide asked if she needed to use the toilet. They<br />
always pinched her elbow when she struggled with her walker down the hall.<br />
This morning when she woke up, snapping her neck to one side, she had<br />
been surprised by the sight of her arms lying like two old branches against<br />
the white sheets. She wanted to pop the kink out of her shoulder from<br />
sleeping on a too-soft mattress. The Japanese block pillow that held the<br />
shape of her neck was gone. Instead she found herself in a high twin bed<br />
with a metal guard rail to keep her from falling out. She had to bite her lower<br />
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