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ISSUE 15 | SPRING 2013<br />
email came yesterday. For long, I have noticed that Anya is no longer her<br />
bright self and now I know it is because of the Self-Portrait! For your<br />
reference I have attached the photo that shows the Self-Portraits of all the<br />
children. There are twelve children in Anya’s class and their Self-Portraits<br />
are shown in two rows in the photo. Now look at the girl at the end of the<br />
first row. She is my Anya. You can see her name written under the Self-<br />
Portrait: Anya Nayantara Nohria. Colour of Eyes: Black. Colour of Skin:<br />
Brown. In her Self-Portrait, you cannot see exactly how beautiful she is. She<br />
is only five years old and still learning to draw, but I attached a photo of her<br />
so you can see for yourself. I attached a photo of myself as well, sitting on<br />
my swing in my gulab garden in Udaipur. Please open all these pictures and<br />
look at them carefully. Is there anything the same between the colour of her<br />
skin in Anya’s Self-Portrait and the real colour of her skin or my skin?<br />
Perhaps you will understand the horror more when you know where I am<br />
from. I belong to the great Indian subcontinent, in particular, I was born in<br />
the Lake City of Udaipur in the state of Rajasthan, which is in the<br />
northwestern part of the country. For more than three hundred years, my<br />
forefathers attended the court of the Maharanas of Udaipur who, you may<br />
know, fought valiantly against the Mughals and preserved their land. My<br />
ancestors, my great-great-grandfather and my great-grandfather, had their<br />
own quarters in the famous Lake Palace in Udaipur, which is much bigger<br />
than a church and made of white marble and has stood unmoving for<br />
centuries while the clear waters of the lake rise and fall around it.<br />
Historically, the females in my family, including my mother and her mother<br />
before her, have always possessed skin smooth as silk and with the colour of<br />
beaten gold, a colour sometimes called wheatish. Skin as valuable as<br />
jewelry, skin the envy of every female in my country, skin meant to be<br />
pampered and spoiled like a favorite child, skin that, never exposed to the<br />
sun, remained undefeated by it. As a child, I would stand and look for a very<br />
long time at the paintings, hanging high on the walls, of the ladies with their<br />
marble skin, lying proudly on silk divans, being gently fanned by attendants<br />
with long fans made from peacock feathers, and I longed with all my heart to<br />
grow up so that I could be like them. I was born in 1982 but people will not<br />
believe it when they see my face. They say in wonder, my dear Manju, you<br />
look eighteen! My mother tells a story of how my skin was so milky as a<br />
baby that she could see where I was on her bed at night even without a lamp<br />
and how visitors would shade their eyes as if from the brightness when they<br />
saw me. When I was twelve she showed me how to prepare a smooth paste<br />
for anointing on my skin using milk that has retained its cream, grated<br />
almonds, a little bit of gram flour mixed with turmeric, honey, and lemon<br />
juice. When I came to America, my mother told me, Manju, every day you<br />
must perform the ritual with the freshly prepared paste and every day you<br />
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