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ISSUE 15 | SPRING 2013<br />
surrendered on board the USS Missouri. Sobo looks like she keeps finding<br />
the same wound inside her, the same returning paradox. Despite her visit to<br />
Nippon and the surrounding ambient details of staccato Buddhist chants,<br />
ringing bells, long-winded Japanese honorifics, despite the lingering smells<br />
of kamaboko, senbei and overflowing good-luck incense in the background,<br />
she looks mortified. Her face is not a silent pain at all, it’s a grievance she<br />
shares with the viewer by accident, as if tripping and falling on your heart.<br />
This is the story of how the particles of my sobo’s soul were slowly<br />
dissolving into the atmospheric mesh threads around her like a bleeding<br />
silkscreen.<br />
3.<br />
It took most of my life to piece together her story, and even more time for<br />
the scraps to cohere, but one day I finally understood the truth about my<br />
sobo: part of her died when she left Japan as a young woman. During the<br />
American occupation, Japan nationalized its shame, handed over its army,<br />
and ignored the crimes against humanity it was both clearly a victim and also<br />
a perpetrator of. Meanwhile, a new constitution was translated from English<br />
to Japanese (making Japanese laws essentially foreign). Clean-cut GI’s<br />
became power brokers of a country they didn’t understand or love, after<br />
hundreds of thousands of civilians perished in the Tokyo firebombing (which<br />
my grandmother survived by jumping into the river and holding her breath).<br />
After America’s radiation experiment in Hiroshima and Nagasaki, Nippon<br />
lost its emperor, its national narrative, its urban landscape, its memory of the<br />
physical world. In that post-war chaos, my sobo was working in Yokohama<br />
as a seamstress when she met my grandfather, an American soldier who was<br />
a stubborn drunk, an amnesiac and a future sex offender. This is the story of<br />
how Japan lost the innocence it never had again and the story of how my<br />
grandfather died of cirrhosis of the liver at an American army base before I<br />
was born, killing himself before I’d have the chance to, a kamikaze without<br />
honor or sake.<br />
4.<br />
The word dementia is also a cognate to the Latin infinitive demēre, meaning<br />
“to take, cut away, withdraw, subtract or take away from.” Medically,<br />
dementia is considered a chronic cognitive disorder, often caused by injury<br />
or disease to the brain, resulting in severe or partial memory loss, mood<br />
swings, strong personality shifts and conflated recall (both sequentially,<br />
spatially and temporally). This is the story of sobo’s loss of reality, the<br />
abduction of her narrative arc by the serial killers of memory, all of them.<br />
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