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ISSUE 15 | SPRING 2013<br />
kimono. Moth-eaten, the owners had said, and she had purchased it for a few<br />
dollars—liking how the fabric felt, how the black weave picked up sunlight.<br />
Always thin, the dress still fit. Etsuko had last worn it to her niece’s wedding<br />
with the simple one-pearl necklace her husband had given to her. She<br />
thought she had looked very fine. Would the boy, Masayuki, recognize her<br />
in red?<br />
There had been little blood when the eight-year-old had fallen. He had been<br />
shinnying high to reach the last fruits on a tall mango tree. Masayuki was<br />
always so hungry. Tsune had run up to Mrs. Littlejohn’s house and pounded<br />
on the door. Etsuko hadn’t felt any broken bones. Only a deep puncture<br />
wound on the side of the boy’s heel. She had made a paste of ground up<br />
potato bugs to help eat the bad flesh away. But Masayuki had grown fevered.<br />
More bad luck, Etsuko thought to herself. From that time on, it seemed like<br />
something was always a burning inside, behind her son’s young eyes.<br />
And then Tsune was pulling the dress over her head, and she was sputtering<br />
and flailing as her hands searched for an opening. “I’ve only the one chance,<br />
Ma,” a voice seemed to be saying from the past, either her husband or her<br />
son. She hadn’t thought they sounded anything alike, but here they were<br />
together inside her head.<br />
When the buttons had found their holes, and Tsune had straightened the<br />
sleeves and collar, Etsuko had leaned against the bed, then looked down to<br />
see her feet still wearing battered zoris. The dress felt silky and smooth, but<br />
her own skin seemed so wrinkled.<br />
“Be patient, you say. Wait! Always wait! How long?” The words were<br />
circling around and around and Etsuko kept seeing how Masayuki would<br />
turn a lichee, gently tearing the shell into one long peel. “Until I die?” This<br />
voice that spoke belonged to a young man, his hair slicked back into a<br />
pompadour high on his forehead.<br />
Tsune’s hair was clipped short at the sides, a little longer in the back; and the<br />
grey wool suit she wore did nothing to make her appear younger. She looks<br />
like my mother, Etsuko thought, as Tsune bustled about, searching through<br />
drawers for stockings and soft slip-on shoes. She wondered if Masayuki<br />
would limp with a cane. His weakened ankle might make his walk unsteady.<br />
Perhaps he would slump, round-shouldered like his father.<br />
“Why do boys want more?” she asked herself. “More love, more food, more<br />
money?” Wrapped up in a piece of toweling, hidden inside a tin can beneath<br />
a board under the bed, the sepia-toned picture of the two of them after their<br />
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