Issue 42 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 42 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 42 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
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a bird had dropped it there, feels like walking into a heated house.<br />
"You've been drinking," she snaps. "Stupid."<br />
"Tardmuffin."<br />
"You sound like thein. Nothing is worse," Hannah accuses.<br />
"Do you really think sounding like the kids at school is worse<br />
than dancing with that ding-head red-beard?"<br />
"By a technochasm. By ten shades <strong>of</strong> termite."<br />
"Okay, diggity dank," I say.<br />
"Where are we going?" she asks.<br />
"Central Park"<br />
"The duck pond?"<br />
"Yeah, the sooner the quicker."<br />
"All the swans <strong>and</strong> ducks are roosting, Dalloway."<br />
"Doesn't matter."<br />
At Trump Plaza, a blonde in a skimpy dress sways like Red Sea<br />
hair coral. Guests slip out <strong>of</strong> the hotel <strong>and</strong> into silk limousines. Some<br />
clamber into carriages. There are more horses in their pitiful blinders,<br />
survivors <strong>of</strong> a magnificent line kidnapped from the grass. A carriage<br />
driver holding a six-foot switch cries, "Twenty bucks for a romantic<br />
tour <strong>of</strong> Central Park," <strong>and</strong> a girl <strong>and</strong> boy climb into his carriage.<br />
Hannah hurries to h<strong>and</strong> the couple one <strong>of</strong><br />
her business cards. Hannah, we should<br />
I think he <strong>and</strong><br />
Dr. Peeler like each<br />
other. That makes<br />
Daddy alesbian I<br />
free the horse. She's far away giving out<br />
her card, Prime FX Lip, to a girl with a man<br />
at least twice her age.<br />
"Come on, come on," I call out.<br />
The couple has settled into their seat,<br />
<strong>and</strong> the carriage driver lifts the reins. The<br />
white horse struggles over the cobblestone<br />
street. Hannah's false eye reminds<br />
me <strong>of</strong> the horse's blinders. Do the hours <strong>of</strong> pulling the carriage pass<br />
slowly for the horse? You can hear the answer in its step, one clop<br />
<strong>and</strong> a hesitation, <strong>and</strong> then another clop. We follow the carriage into<br />
the park, but the horse is picking up speed. It must smell the trees<br />
<strong>and</strong> think there's rest here.<br />
"Run," I shout. "We have to catch up."<br />
"Dalloway, stop. We'll go to the pond, <strong>and</strong> then home. If we get<br />
into trouble, your mother will never let you see Kim again."<br />
If Mommy has her way I won't see Hannah much longer either.<br />
There's mist in the trees <strong>and</strong> homeless men huddle next to each<br />
other on stone benches. The streetlight throws smeary images <strong>of</strong><br />
their faces on the wet pathway. I almost don't see them because<br />
they're always there. Like the static you used to hear between TV<br />
channels. One <strong>of</strong> them wears a hooded sweatshirt <strong>and</strong> Kleenex boxes<br />
on his feet. I reach for Hannah's arm. She <strong>of</strong>fers me her jacket, but I<br />
tell her no. Is she talking as we walk deeper into the park? I can't be<br />
sure that I'm not hearing her thoughts. This, Dalloway, this misery is<br />
what St. Petersburg feels like. They're sprucing up the palaces but<br />
the city was built on a swamp by force, stone by stone, <strong>and</strong> workers<br />
died like flies. It's still there, all the hell.<br />
"I told Kim we'd take a cab," Hannah says. "I promised we'd go<br />
straight home."<br />
"I think he <strong>and</strong> Dr. Peeler like each other. That makes Daddy a lesbian."<br />
"Big deal."<br />
"Did I say it was? Let's go over there."<br />
We plop down near the pond <strong>and</strong> wait for the swans. On the next<br />
bench, a man sits in a flak jacket without an umbrella or hat. A grocery<br />
cart filled with folded newspapers <strong>and</strong> Duane Reade sacks is<br />
parked near him. I nudge Hannah. "That guy is sitting up so straight<br />
he looks made out <strong>of</strong> stone."<br />
Hannah shrugs. Rain is beginning to fall harder, the skinny drops<br />
getting fat. I rest my head on her shoulder, <strong>and</strong> then she takes <strong>of</strong>f her<br />
jacket <strong>and</strong> covers me with it. "See, stupid, I told you swans sleep in<br />
their nests at night. The only ones that swim in moonlight are the swan<br />
maidens. When they take <strong>of</strong>f their feather shirts the birds becOIne<br />
beautiful women." She spreads her hair behind her so the rain can soak<br />
it. "You brought us on a wild goose chase."<br />
I study the brown surface <strong>of</strong> the pond. Empty. Then I close my<br />
eyes <strong>and</strong> concentrate on making two graceful shapes appear, I think<br />
swans, their necks together, talking in whistles. When I open myeyes<br />
the water is still naked. The man in the flak jacket hasn't moved.<br />
"I think that man is dead," I say.<br />
Hannah snorts, "Dead drunk"<br />
"Bet."<br />
"Five dollars."<br />
Hannah gets up <strong>and</strong> goes over to the man. "Hello? Would you like<br />
a facial?" she asks, a hank <strong>of</strong> her hair falling against him, "I'll show<br />
you, Dalloway. One touch <strong>and</strong> he'll grunt <strong>and</strong> maybe even wakeup.<br />
Then you'll owe me five U.s. dollars." Her fingertips touch his cheek<br />
like she is applying dots <strong>of</strong> foundation. "Oh, no," she whispers. Rings<br />
<strong>of</strong> moisture drop from the streetlight over her shining head. "Come<br />
here, Dalloway. Come," she says, quivering. "Give me your h<strong>and</strong>."<br />
I let her press my h<strong>and</strong> against his cheek Her fingers stay wann<br />
on top <strong>of</strong> mine, while under them the chill spreads. "Do you feel it?"