My Years with Ludwig von Mises.pdf - The Ludwig von Mises Institute
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tried their best to get his attention. He was interested in their<br />
careers, in their intellectual development, but completely indifferent<br />
toward them as women.<br />
Once he chided me: "If you would not have been, I could have<br />
married a very rich heiress." "Why didn't you?" I asked him. "We<br />
both would have lived happily ever after." He rejected both my<br />
Rippancy and my proposal.<br />
Another time I told him: "Do you know that people revealed to<br />
me that you at one time were engaged to marry Dr. Lene Lieser [a<br />
former student at his seminar]?" fIe laughed and said, "Did you<br />
really believe it? Could you ever imagine me married to an economist?"<br />
I really could not.<br />
<strong>The</strong> wish to have me near him was constantly in him. He knew I<br />
needed a father for my children; he was aware of. the fact that I<br />
gave them all the love and affection I was capable of. But children<br />
need more than a loving and doting mother. <strong>The</strong>y need guidance<br />
and direction for their development, and I, as a mother alone, was<br />
well aware that I was not strong enough to give them what they<br />
deserved.<br />
Lu thought of the task he had set himself, the tremendous work<br />
that was ahead of him, all the writing he wanted to do. He bore the<br />
burden of making a frightening decision-the choice between his<br />
work and duty to his intellectual ideals on the one hand, and a life<br />
of love and affection on the other. Soon after we became engaged,<br />
he grew afraid of marriage, the bond it would mean, the change<br />
that children would bring to a quiet home, and the responsibilities<br />
that might detract him from his work. So it was a stormy relationship,<br />
the old problem of Adam and Eve.<br />
But we did not live in Paradise-far from it. We never had a fight<br />
between us. Lu fought himself, and then made me suffer. I was<br />
deeply in love <strong>with</strong> him now, a love so different from what I ever<br />
had felt before that I hardly knew myself any more. Until now I<br />
had always taken; I had been spoiled. Now I only wanted to give,<br />
give, give-and I deeply felt that he needed me, too.<br />
We spent most of our vacations together. I usually rented a cottage<br />
in the country for the children and my mother, andLu and I<br />
went mountain climbing. Other sports did not mean much to him.<br />
He played tennis-always <strong>with</strong> a trainer-but <strong>with</strong>out enthusiasm.<br />
Once I watched him. When the ball was easy for him to reach, he<br />
returned it, otherwise he would not bother. When I asked him:<br />
"Why don't you put a little effort into your game?"" He replied,<br />
"Why should I? <strong>The</strong> fate of the ball does not interest me.""<br />
He was a member of the Athletic Club in Vienna and dutifully<br />
went fencing once a week. But mountain climbing was the sport he<br />
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