My Years with Ludwig von Mises.pdf - The Ludwig von Mises Institute
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whom I had to contend. If he needed money-usually toward the<br />
end of the month-Tiny started to bang the doors from the moment<br />
she came in and never stopped using the vacuum cleaner, a terror<br />
to Lu when he was writing. <strong>The</strong>n he knew she would come and<br />
demand more money. Being alone and in need of her services, he<br />
always gave in. When we married, no one thought I would be able<br />
to get on <strong>with</strong> her, in spite of all her good qualities. She was really<br />
the neatestperson I ever had working for me, and she was a perfect<br />
cook. I did not want to lose her.<br />
But after a short time I found out she had been charging us quite<br />
a bit of extra money for herhousehold shopping purchases, and I<br />
very kindly advised her that in future I would help her (after all,<br />
she had so much extra work now because of me) <strong>with</strong> the shopping.<br />
I also told her I would try to get her off earlier in the afternoon<br />
so she could have more of a homelife herself. She was so frail<br />
and thin, so unattractive, that I could hardly imagine the relationship<br />
between her and her lover. It must have been a one-sided<br />
affair. When we were in New York, during the war, I tried to reach<br />
her. I wanted to help, send her things she might need, but she had<br />
disappeared. No one, not even the police, could find a trace of her.<br />
Something terrible must have happened, and I still think of her<br />
<strong>with</strong> great pity. She stayed <strong>with</strong> us until our last day in Geneva.<br />
She even brought us to the bus that took us to France.<br />
<strong>The</strong> evening after our marriage, when Lu and I took our first<br />
dinner at home, Tiny, of course, was not in. We were both happy.<br />
From the day of our marriage Lu was a changed person. Not that<br />
he spoiled me <strong>with</strong> gifts or presents-he would not have known<br />
how to do that-but he was so affectionate, so happy. Every little<br />
thing I did was of interest to him. <strong>The</strong> world had changed for him.<br />
He once told me: "You are like a kitten, so soft and tender. I only<br />
hope you won't show the claws later on~" How often he had teased<br />
me: "I hope you are not like so many women: Once they get that<br />
certain little piece of paper, they give up." During our first months<br />
together when we were invited out, he even chose the dress he<br />
wanted me to wear that night. But slowly he convinced himself<br />
that I would do no wrong and left the choice to me.<br />
But there was one thing about him that I never understood and<br />
still don't understand. From the day of our marriage he never<br />
talked about our past. If I reminded him now and then of something,<br />
he cut me short. It was as if he had put the past in a trunk,<br />
stored it in the attic, and thrown away the key. In thirty-five years<br />
of marriage he never, never-not <strong>with</strong> a single word-referred to<br />
our life together during the thirteen years before our marriage. As<br />
the past was part of my life, part of the person I became, I could<br />
not forget. His silence about the past remains in my mind like a<br />
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