Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
Rumbling on performativity_Frits Simon
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Together the elements of the mixture suggest an explanati<strong>on</strong> for the <strong>on</strong>going ambivalence<br />
about how I was acting in my work at the start of my research. Basically I was<br />
inspired by the wish to involve people as much as possible, practically charged with a<br />
lot of resp<strong>on</strong>sibilities and reflexively observing that things turned out differently.<br />
However, I also notice that I was focussed <strong>on</strong> social interacti<strong>on</strong>s, communicati<strong>on</strong> and<br />
<strong>on</strong> stimulating cooperati<strong>on</strong>. I was interested in what people do when accomplishing<br />
something together.<br />
At the start what I would be doing for my research was explored and still wide and<br />
open. I entered my research with the idea of doing research into co-creativity related<br />
to using the wisdom of the crowd. At that time it was meant to flow into an idea how<br />
instituti<strong>on</strong>al strategy could be developed in a participative way based <strong>on</strong> am<strong>on</strong>g<br />
others recent insights in neurological sciences. However, getting acquainted with a<br />
complex resp<strong>on</strong>sive process-perspective, almost instantly I started to sense that<br />
co-creativity and wisdom of the crowds is always there, but in quite another fashi<strong>on</strong><br />
than I assumed. In the way I came to learn that ‘wisdom’ emerges in social interacti<strong>on</strong>,<br />
also my research themes and questi<strong>on</strong>s started to change and other themes emerged.<br />
In what follows it will become clear that my reflecti<strong>on</strong> up<strong>on</strong> and the c<strong>on</strong>fr<strong>on</strong>tati<strong>on</strong> of a<br />
complex resp<strong>on</strong>sive process-approach with my existing co-creative orientati<strong>on</strong>s -<br />
which of course were entangled with my former beliefs and experiences - have led me<br />
towards other and new orientati<strong>on</strong>s <strong>on</strong> what is happening in the UAS, what my job is<br />
and what might (not) be d<strong>on</strong>e. To anticipate: the more or less utopian - or maybe<br />
patr<strong>on</strong>izing - assumpti<strong>on</strong>s within a co-creative approach or within a c<strong>on</strong>cept like the<br />
wisdom of the crowds will be traded in for c<strong>on</strong>cepts like unpredictability, uncertainty,<br />
modesty and being reticent about the possibilities of planned reform of educati<strong>on</strong>.<br />
The way I got acquainted with a complex resp<strong>on</strong>sive process-approach is to be noticed<br />
in this first narrative. Predominantly I use ideas of Mead and Stacey to c<strong>on</strong>nect them<br />
to my way of thinking in a rather analytical and book smart way. Mostly I used the<br />
work of Mead and Stacey to support what I was thinking, and not the other way<br />
around. I came to experience that my book smartness - endless I was called - proofed<br />
to be quite an obstacle to grasp the value of a complex resp<strong>on</strong>sive process-approach. I<br />
came to learn quite some less<strong>on</strong>s.<br />
In my descripti<strong>on</strong> of my taken for granted assumpti<strong>on</strong>s I also recognize what within<br />
auto-ethnography is labelled as the importance of epiphanies (Denzin, 2014). I realize<br />
that I rec<strong>on</strong>structed my history with the help of meaningful biographical events. In my<br />
case for instance with the help of the hypocrite priest or the manager who decided<br />
about my future with the speed of light.<br />
Being more aware of my taken for granted assumpti<strong>on</strong>s I started to narrate <strong>on</strong> some<br />
of my experiences in my work. The first and next narrative is about a project regarding<br />
identity-management.<br />
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