Beelzebubs-Tales-to-His-Grandson-by-G-I-Gurdjieff

'Today, I can still reconcile myself to this appalling misfortune, but whattomorrow will be I cannot even picture to myself.'And if today I can still somehow reconcile myself, it is simply because Iremember very well the words of our great prophet of ancient times, EsaiNoora, who said, "Only when in death agony is an individual not responsiblefor his manifestations.'Evidently my science, my divinity, my second mother, is also in itsdeath agony, if it has now betrayed me .'I know very well that death agony is always followed by death." 'And you, dear friend of my friend, have involuntarily taken the place ofthose physicians who on the eve of my dear mother's death announced to methat she could not live another day.'For you are the bearer of just such news, telling me that tomorrow thisnew hearth of mine will also be extinguished.'The same terrible feelings and sensations are surging up in me as Iexperienced from the moment our physicians announced the imminent deathof my mother until she actually died." 'Just as then, in the midst of those terrible feelings and sensations, therewas still the hope that perhaps she would not die, so now, something like thathope is still flickering in me." 'Ekh! Friend of my friend! Now that you know the state of my soul, Ibeseech you, can you explain to me through what supernatural force the boilthat should infallibly have been formed on your left leg did not appear?'For the certainty that it would infallibly be formed was based on a faiththat long ago became as unshakable in me as the "Tookloonian stone. "'And it has become so firm and unshakable because for