<strong>The</strong>se happy days did not last long. One brief spring, musical with the song <strong>of</strong> robin and mocking-bird,one summer rich in fruit and roses, one autumn <strong>of</strong> gold and crimson sped by and left their gifts at thefeet <strong>of</strong> an eager, delighted child. <strong>The</strong>n, in the dreary month <strong>of</strong> February, came the illness which closedmy eyes and ears and plunged me into the unconsciousness <strong>of</strong> a new-born baby. <strong>The</strong>y called it acutecongestion <strong>of</strong> the stomach and brain. <strong>The</strong> doctor thought I could not live. Early one morning, however,the fever left me as suddenly and mysteriously as it had come. <strong>The</strong>re was great rejoicing in the familythat morning, but no one, not even the doctor, knew that I should never see or hear again.I fancy I still have confused recollections <strong>of</strong> that illness. I especially remember the tenderness withwhich my mother tried to soothe me in my waling hours <strong>of</strong> fret and pain, and the agony andbewilderment with which I awoke after a tossing half sleep, and turned my eyes, so dry and hot, to thewall away from the once-loved light, which came to me dim and yet more dim each day. But, exceptfor these fleeting memories, if, indeed, they be memories, it all seems very unreal, like a nightmare.Gradually I got used to the silence and darkness that surrounded me and f<strong>org</strong>ot that it had ever beendifferent, until she came--my teacher--who was to set my spirit free. But during the first nineteenmonths <strong>of</strong> my life I had caught glimpses <strong>of</strong> broad, green fields, a luminous sky, trees and flowers whichthe darkness that followed could not wholly blot out. If we have once seen, "the day is ours, and whatthe day has shown."Chapter III cannot recall what happened during the first months after my illness. I only know that I sat in mymother's lap or clung to her dress as she went about her household duties. <strong>My</strong> hands felt every objectand observed every motion, and in this way I learned to know many things. Soon I felt the need <strong>of</strong>some communication with others and began to make crude signs. A shake <strong>of</strong> the head meant "No" anda nod, "Yes," a pull meant "Come" and a push, "Go." Was it bread that I wanted? <strong>The</strong>n I would imitatethe acts <strong>of</strong> cutting the slices and buttering them. If I wanted my mother to make ice-cream for dinner Imade the sign for working the freezer and shivered, indicating cold. <strong>My</strong> mother, moreover, succeededin making me understand a good deal. I always knew when she wished me to bring her something, andI would run upstairs or anywhere else she indicated. Indeed, I owe to her loving wisdom all that wasbright and good in my long night.I understood a good deal <strong>of</strong> what was going on about me. At five I learned to fold and put away theclean clothes when they were brought in from the laundry, and I distinguished my own from the rest. Iknew by the way my mother and aunt dressed when they were going out, and I invariably begged to gowith them. I was always sent for when there was company, and when the guests took their leave, Iwaved my hand to them, I think with a vague remembrance <strong>of</strong> the meaning <strong>of</strong> the gesture. One daysome gentlemen called on my mother, and I felt the shutting <strong>of</strong> the front door and other sounds thatindicated their arrival. On a sudden thought I ran upstairs before any one could stop me, to put on myidea <strong>of</strong> a company dress. Standing before the mirror, as I had seen others do, I anointed mine head withoil and covered my face thickly with powder. <strong>The</strong>n I pinned a veil over my head so that it covered myface and fell in folds down to my shoulders, and tied an enormous bustle round my small waist, so thatit dangled behind, almost meeting the hem <strong>of</strong> my skirt. Thus attired I went down to help entertain thecompany.I do not remember when I first realized that I was different from other people; but I knew it before myteacher came to me. I had noticed that my mother and my friends did not use signs as I did when theywanted anything done, but talked with their mouths. Sometimes I stood between two persons who wereconversing and touched their lips. I could not understand, and was vexed. I moved my lips andgesticulated frantically without result. This made me so angry at times that I kicked and screamed until
I was exhausted.I think I knew when I was naughty, for I knew that it hurt Ella, my nurse, to kick her, and when my fit<strong>of</strong> temper was over I had a feeling akin to regret. But I cannot remember any instance in which thisfeeling prevented me from repeating the naughtiness when I failed to get what I wanted.In those days a little coloured girl, Martha Washington, the child <strong>of</strong> our cook, and Belle, an old setter,and a great hunter in her day, were my constant companions. Martha Washington understood my signs,and I seldom had any difficulty in making her do just as I wished. It pleased me to domineer over her,and she generally submitted to my tyranny rather than risk a hand-to-hand encounter. I was strong,active, indifferent to consequences. I knew my own mind well enough and always had my own way,even if I had to fight tooth and nail for it. We spent a great deal <strong>of</strong> time in the kitchen, kneading doughballs, helping make ice-cream, grinding c<strong>of</strong>fee, quarreling over the cake-bowl, and feeding the hensand turkeys that swarmed about the kitchen steps. Many <strong>of</strong> them were so tame that they would eat frommy hand and let me feel them. One big gobbler snatched a tomato from me one day and ran away withit. Inspired, perhaps, by Master Gobbler's success, we carried <strong>of</strong>f to the woodpile a cake which the cookhad just frosted, and ate every bit <strong>of</strong> it. I was quite ill afterward, and I wonder if retribution alsoovertook the turkey.<strong>The</strong> guinea-fowl likes to hide her nest in out-<strong>of</strong>-the-way places, and it was one <strong>of</strong> my greatest delightsto hunt for the eggs in the long grass. I could not tell Martha Washington when I wanted to go egghunting,but I would double my hands and put them on the ground, which meant something round inthe grass, and Martha always understood. When we were fortunate enough to find a nest I neverallowed her to carry the eggs home, making her understand by emphatic signs that she might fall andbreak them.<strong>The</strong> sheds where the corn was stored, the stable where the horses were kept, and the yard where thecows were milked morning and evening were unfailing sources <strong>of</strong> interest to Martha and me. <strong>The</strong>milkers would let me keep my hands on the cows while they milked, and I <strong>of</strong>ten got well switched bythe cow for my curiosity.<strong>The</strong> making ready for Christmas was always a delight to me. Of course I did not know what it was allabout, but I enjoyed the pleasant odours that filled the house and the tidbits that were given to MarthaWashington and me to keep us quiet. We were sadly in the way, but that did not interfere with ourpleasure in the least. <strong>The</strong>y allowed us to grind the spices, pick over the raisins and lick the stirringspoons. I hung my stocking because the others did; I cannot remember, however, that the ceremonyinterested me especially, nor did my curiosity cause me to wake before daylight to look for my gifts.Martha Washington had as great a love <strong>of</strong> mischief as I. Two little children were seated on the verandasteps one hot July afternoon. One was black as ebony, with little bunches <strong>of</strong> fuzzy hair tied withshoestrings sticking out all over her head like corkscrews. <strong>The</strong> other was white, with long golden curls.One child was six years old, the other two or three years older. <strong>The</strong> younger child was blind--that wasI--and the other was Martha Washington. We were busy cutting out paper dolls; but we soon wearied <strong>of</strong>this amusement, and after cutting up our shoestrings and clipping all the leaves <strong>of</strong>f the honeysuckle thatwere within reach, I turned my attention to Martha's corkscrews. She objected at first, but finallysubmitted. Thinking that turn and turn about is fair play, she seized the scissors and cut <strong>of</strong>f one <strong>of</strong> mycurls, and would have cut them all <strong>of</strong>f but for my mother's timely interference.Belle, our dog, my other companion, was old and lazy and liked to sleep by the open fire rather than toromp with me. I tried hard to teach her my sign language, but she was dull and inattentive. Shesometimes started and quivered with excitement, then she became perfectly rigid, as dogs do when theypoint a bird. I did not then know why Belle acted in this way; but I knew she was not doing as I wished.
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