Myra-Breckinridge-Gore-Vidal

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Where are my breasts? **Where are my breasts?**42What an extraordinary document! I have spent all morningreading this notebook and I can hardly believe that I wasever the person who wrote those demented pages. I'vebeen debating whether or not to show them to my wife but Ithink, all in all, it's better to let the dead past bury its dead.As it is, neither of us ever mentions the period in which Iwas a woman and except for my agent, Miss Van Allen, wedeliberately avoid seeing anyone who knew me in thosedays. For over three years now we have been living in theSan Fernando Valley on what they call a ranch but isactually just a few acres of date palms and lemon trees.The house is modern with every convenience and I havejust built an outdoor barbecue pit which is much admired bythe neighbors, many of whom are personalities in showbusiness or otherwise work in some capacity or another inthe Industry. Ours is a friendly community, with many finepeople to share interests with. At present I am writing aseries, currently in its second year on ABC. I would ofcourse like very much to do feature films but they are notthat easy to come by. Miss Van Allen, however, keepssubmitting my name so who knows when lightning willstrike? Meanwhile, the series is a good credit and I makegood money. While cleaning out the attic, I came acrossthis notebook along with all the manuscripts I wrote back in
New York. Frankly I can't make head or tail of them. Icertainly went through a pretentious phase! Luckilyeverything is now stabilized for me and I have just about thebest wife and marriage I know of. Mary-Ann still singsprofessionally from time to time as well as appearing locallyon television with her own children's program five days aweek in the early A. M. She is quite a celebrity with thesmall fry in the Valley. It's been a long time since I've seenBuck Loner but he's doing O.K. with the Academy, I gather,and every now and then one of the students actually gets ajob in show business. So my work wasn't entirely in vain.The most famous alumnus is Ace Mann who used to beRusty Godowsky. After mopping up in that television series,he promptly inked a multiple nonexclusive contract withUniversal and is now the Number Four Box Office Star inthe World, according to Film Daily. He is also, I'm sorry tolearn, a complete homosexual, for which I feel a certaindegree of responsibility and guilt. But Dr. Montag, whom Iran into last week outside \Yil Wright's on Santa i\'lonicaBoulevard, said he thought it was probably always in thecards for Rusty and what I did to him just brought his truenature to the surface. I hope he's right. Dr. Montag seemshappy, although he now weighs over three hundred poundsand at first I didn't recognize him, but then he didn'trecognize me either. Well, none of us is getting anyyounger. I am now almost entirely bald, which I compensatefor by wearing a rather dashing R. A. F.-style moustache.Needless to say, it is a constant sadness that Mary-Annand I can never have children. But ever since we both
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The novel being dead, there is no p
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you in the course of our common voy
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first... But there is to be no spec
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Buck Loner is not the man he was wh
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wrote an entire poem praising limes
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Myron wrote me. Great suffering at
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literature in the post-Gutenberg ag
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irrevocably committed. Or as Diotim
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come to Saint Louis and later to th
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shes making it with Rusty Godowsky
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had they succeeded they could never
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odor of deodorant mingled with toba
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saddened by the signs of decay. The
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Seated at a table in the Academy ca
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has fled and only the television co
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entirely typical of the nation. The
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it. Artistic integrity demands cons
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play at flattery. By the time I'm f
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will ride the ranges of the world's
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ecause she does not realize that sh
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only hope at this point proving she
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was at one with all creation. The n
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the necessary elimination of Hitler
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Fact, it's just to be with Rusty th
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devote to my life's real work, comp
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world of your ever being a major st
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mean the ribs are all inside me tha
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which a good two inches were in pla
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now been revealed, the rest must wa
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un out crying to beat the band but
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him in New York New Jersey or Con n
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looked at me with such frightened s
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the same size as it is when erect,
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never won! Never! To think that a g
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even love. The plan requires it. Al
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in this notebook, a most liberating
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stage: mystical elation. I understo
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BUCK LONER REPORTSRecording Disc No
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actually laughed at Myra Breckinrid
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Dover. "Lady!" He snorted. I leapt
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almost too beautiful for this world
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unpleasantly curved beer-belly, a l
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of course take my revenge upon him
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instinct to dominate in traditional
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theres no doubt she was involved de
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kind of person who will then create
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allowing any agents or professional
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phrase, "a rape of the penis." Unti
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instance, since the death of Marily
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lunch... I'll pick your brains. You
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calling him again? MYRA: It's Myra
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doctor because I must find out the
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instant I wondered if perhaps I had
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themselves. Yet the will to prevail
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met Mary-Ann and Rusty at the Cock
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forearms, coiling about the thick b
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supposed to do, yes. That's what we
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marvelous if fiery fate. "But what
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no more children into the world. Bu
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confused in the paper works departm
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Mary-Ann, she'll tell you I did. I
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first response. "It would just kill
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"Exactly," I said, ready now to beg
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embarrassment, for he has the Ameri
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more where that came from," I said
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pulling up trousers and shorts in f
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eing such a baby!" Delicately I too
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"Did she make the advances?" "Yes.
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left hand up the inside of his left
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see how I can omit this part of the
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to him that I could smell the stron
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down at me and the loose-stemmed ro
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his bonds, but failed. Then he did
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30I sit now at the card table. Thro
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trying to extract a straight bit of
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me at every level, there's no doubt
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Page 175 and 176: let us break the world's pots, and
Page 177 and 178: his cool I dont he, said quote beli
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