Also by Cassandra Clare

“No reason.” She wrinkled up her nose. “That ear thing was weird. Don’t do it again.”
“How about this?” he suggested, and leaned in to kiss the base of her throat.
Sensation spiraled out from the places his lips touched—her collarbone first, then her neck, then
the side of her mouth.
She drew her hands out from behind her back and reached for him. His skin was sunshine-warm.
Their faces were so close that she could see the small starbursts of color inside his eyes: pale
gold, paler blue. He wasn’t smiling. His expression was too intent for that. There was a wanting in
his eyes that made her feel like she was breaking apart.
Their legs tangled in the blankets as they came together, mouths seeking. He still wasn’t an expert
kisser, but she liked that. She liked being reminded that he hadn’t been with anyone but her. That she
was his first. She liked that something as simple as a kiss was still a source of amazement for him.
She used her tongue to trace the corners of his mouth, the seam of his lips, until he sank back on the
bed, pulling her on top of him. His body shuddered, arching up toward hers, his hands sliding down to
grip her hips.
“Emma?” There was a knock on the door. They jerked away from each other, Julian rolling off the
bed, Emma sitting upright, her heart pounding. “Emma, it’s Dru. Have you seen Jules?”
“No,” Emma croaked. “I haven’t.”
The door started to open.
“Don’t,” Emma called. “I’m—I’m getting dressed.”
“Whatever,” Dru said dismissively, but the door didn’t open further. Resolutely, Emma didn’t look
toward Julian. Everything’s fine, she told herself. Calm, be calm. “Well, if you see him, can you tell
him Tavvy and everyone need lunch? Livvy and Ty are making a mess in the kitchen, too.”
Her voice held the satisfied tone of a sibling tattling on another sibling.
“Sure,” said Emma. “Did you check the studio? He might be there.”
There was a rustle. “No, I didn’t. Good idea. See you later!”
“Bye,” Emma said, faintly. Dru’s footsteps were already receding down the hall.
Finally Emma let herself look at Julian. He was leaning against the wall, his chest rising and falling
fast, his eyes half-lidded, teeth digging into his lip.
He exhaled. “Raziel,” he whispered. “That was close.”
Emma got to her feet, her nightgown swishing around her knees. She was shaking. “We can’t,” she
started. “We can’t—we’ll get caught—”
Julian was already across the room, taking her in his arms. She could feel his heart slamming
against his rib cage, but his voice was steady. “It’s a stupid Law,” he said. “It’s a bad Law, Em.”
There is a reason you can’t fall in love with your parabatai, Emma. And when you find out what it
is, you will feel the cruelty of the Shadowhunters just as I have.
Malcolm’s voice, unwelcome and unavoidable, pushed its way into Emma’s brain. She’d done all
she could to forget it, forget what he’d said. He’d been lying—he’d lied about everything else. This
had to be a lie, too.
And yet. She’d put it off, but she knew she had to tell Julian. He had the right to know.
“We have to talk,” she said.
She felt his heart skip. “Don’t say that. I know it’s not good.” He pulled her tighter against him.
“Don’t get scared, Emma,” he whispered. “Don’t let us go because you’re frightened.”
“I am frightened. Not for me, for you. Everything you’ve done, all the hiding and pretending, to
keep the kids together—the situation hasn’t changed, Julian. If I hurt any of you—
He kissed her, stemming the tide of words. Despite everything, she felt the kiss all through her