Pradeep Apte - The Nisargadatta Gita

become the ‘I am’. And, what will happen when
you practice this intense non-dual devotion? You
will vanish and be lost in the vast unknown and
become the Absolute.
225. Thoroughly investigate the
appearance and disappearance of the ‘I
am’ – did you desire it, or did it just
happen?
After the Guru makes you understand the
importance of the knowledge ‘I am’ without words,
you have to investigate it thoroughly on your own.
For this you have to ponder over what he has said
constantly. As understanding, meditation and
conviction grow together, the important question
about the appearance and disappearance of the ‘I
am’ arises. The question is: Did it occur through
your wanting or desiring? Was it a volitional
process? If you have correctly understood the ‘I
am’ your answer would be that it came and will go
spontaneously, on its own. This will strike a blow
at the belief you hold that you are ‘doer’- and may
even end it.