Lot's Wife Edition 4 2016
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SOCIETY<br />
These are not compliments. Among other issues, it elicits the<br />
bizarre notion that there is a certain way to look gay.<br />
Although you might think you’re being complementary by<br />
pointing out a person’s similarities to the norm, comments like<br />
this can be really harmful to LGBTQIA folks.<br />
When I first ‘came out’ my next worry was how to become<br />
visible within the community. I soon learnt that if you’re a<br />
Queer woman presenting on the more feminine side, you can<br />
often find yourself quite invisible in a lot of community spaces,<br />
especially if you don’t have a network of friends. Being told<br />
that I didn’t look gay enough added to the apprehension I was<br />
already feeling about wanting to fit into this new community I<br />
identified with.<br />
Such issues of visibility and belonging manifest in a heteronormative<br />
system, where the default is heterosexual, and<br />
so everyone is presumed to be straight until they ‘come out’<br />
or prove otherwise. Hence the dilemma for some of how to<br />
become visible.<br />
Why the focus on heteronormativity? Acknowledging<br />
heterosexuality as the norm allows for us to see it as a political<br />
institution that first and foremost privileges heterosexuality.<br />
Your gender studies lecturer will probably term this a ‘hierarchy<br />
of sexualities’, because they see sexualities and the labels we<br />
use as inextricably bound to systems of power and privilege.<br />
By making assumptions of a person’s sexuality based on<br />
their appearance and the way they dress, you are reinforcing<br />
heteronormativity. We all do it. I make these presumptions<br />
all the time, but I do try to make a conscious effort to unlearn<br />
these ways of thinking, and question its origins.<br />
Many see heteronormativity as a product of a heterosexist<br />
society. And what is a heterosexist society? Well, heterosexism<br />
is simply this normative bias in favour of heterosexual relationships<br />
that permeates the attitudes and cultures of our society.<br />
Having to reiterate to some people that, yes, despite my<br />
appearance I am indeed gay, becomes tiring. These appearance-based<br />
assumptions are unavoidably gendered as well, as<br />
much of these sceptical attitudes manifest in the idea that an<br />
overly feminine woman must be heterosexual. The comment<br />
that someone is ‘too pretty to be a lesbian’ also represents this<br />
common assumption that conflates appearance with sexuality,<br />
whereby lesbians are assumed to only date women if they are<br />
physically undesirable to men.<br />
I have noticed that when I out myself to straight men I tend<br />
to label myself as ‘gay’ rather than ‘lesbian’. I find myself disassociating<br />
with the label lesbian because of the sexual connotations<br />
attached to it that indulge the male gaze. Queer sexual<br />
identities are so commonly sexualised, and as much as I take<br />
pride in identifying as a lesbian, sometimes it’s easier to use<br />
the label ‘gay’ for this reason. In my experience ‘gay’ seems to<br />
warrant less speculation, scepticism, or creepy interest. When I<br />
term myself as a lesbian, I have experienced that some straight<br />
men commonly see this as an invitation (“That’s hot”) – or<br />
alternatively think I’m an angry radical feminist that will spit<br />
on him and throw my burning bra in his direction. Don’t get me<br />
wrong though, I am angry :)<br />
This may all sound a little embellished, but it does indeed<br />
happen. I was recently at a bar with some friends, and we were<br />
approached by two men who struck up conversation. Their way<br />
I soon learnt that if<br />
you’re a Queer woman<br />
presenting on the more<br />
feminine side, you can<br />
often find yourself<br />
quite invisible in a lot of<br />
community spaces.<br />
of deciphering which of us were potentially interested in them<br />
was to individually ask each of us, “You got a boyfriend?”<br />
(Clearly they respected the idea of us being another man’s<br />
property more so than our own individual agency.) When the<br />
index finder swung in my direction, one of my friends proposed<br />
that I would actually have a girlfriend, which elicited raised<br />
eyebrows along with the trying-to-play-accepting-but-reallyjust-creepy<br />
comments of, “Really? That’s cool, I like that.” (To<br />
which I responded, “I’m sure you do” *eye-roll*.)<br />
All in all, it would be nice if I didn’t find myself in these<br />
awkward encounters where I feel pressured to out myself to<br />
strangers. Most of the time, I choose not to. And for any peeved<br />
dudes reading this and thinking ‘not all men’, yes, I know not<br />
all of you are that appalling at talking to women in bars. Sadly<br />
I have also had other Queer people, including queer women,<br />
question my sexual identity based on my appearance. To me,<br />
these experiences are embedded in heteronormativity. I am<br />
presumed straight until I prove otherwise, based largely on my<br />
feminine or ‘lipstick’ appearance.<br />
Thankfully I am now at a place where questions like “who<br />
pays on the dates?” just entertain me (with disdain). While the<br />
language you use and comments you make may seem benign to<br />
you, to some they can be really harmful.<br />
At the very least, if you give no fucks for anyone but<br />
yourself, then be aware of the political power relations you are<br />
regurgitating. And at best, I have found that it’s important<br />
to be mindful of the troublesome norms we are perpetuating<br />
with what may seem like throwaway comments or harmless<br />
questions.<br />
Rather than try to find ways in which my relationships<br />
mirror your own, or compliment me on how my appearance<br />
assimilates with your idea of femininity, allow me my differences.<br />
It’s time to understand that we are different, and accept us<br />
anyway.<br />
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