THE DIARY OF A YOUNG GIRL : THE DEFINITIVE EDITION ... - Fidele
THE DIARY OF A YOUNG GIRL : THE DEFINITIVE EDITION ... - Fidele
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"Oh, you're wrong about that," I replied. "Most of what I say comes out very<br />
differently from the way I'd planned. Plus I talk too much and too long, and<br />
that's just as bad."<br />
"Maybe, but you have the advantage that no one can see you're embarrassed. You<br />
don't blush or go to pieces."<br />
I couldn't help being secretly amused at his words. However, since I wanted him to<br />
go on talking quietly about himself, I hid my laughter, sat down on a cushion on<br />
the floor, wrapped my arms around my knees and gazed at him intently.<br />
I'm glad there's someone else in this house who flies into the same rages as I do.<br />
Peter seemed relieved that he could criticize Dussel without being afraid I'd<br />
tell. As for me, I was pleased too, because I sensed a strong feeling of<br />
fellowship, which I only remember having had with my girlfriends.<br />
Yours, Anne<br />
TUESDAY, FEBRUARY 15, 1944<br />
The minor run-in with Dussel had several repercussions, for which he had only<br />
himself to blame. Monday evening Dussel came in to see Mother and told her<br />
triumphantly that Peter had asked him that morning if he'd slept well, and then<br />
added how sorry he was about what had happened Sunday evening -- he hadn't really<br />
meant what he'd said. Dussel assured him he hadn't taken it to heart. So<br />
everYthing was right as rain again. Mother passed this story on to me, and I was<br />
secretly amazed that Peter, who'd been so angry at Dussel, had humbled himself,<br />
despite all his assurances to the contrary.<br />
I couldn't refrain from sounding Peter out on the subject, and he instantly<br />
replied that Dussel had been lying. You should have seen Peter's face. I wish I'd<br />
had a camera. Indignation, rage, indecision, agitation and much more crossed his<br />
face in rapid succession.<br />
That evening Mr. van Daan and Peter really told Dussel off. But it couldn't have<br />
been all that bad, since Peter had another dental appointment today.<br />
Actually, they never wanted to speak to each other again.<br />
WEDNESDAY, FEBRUARY 16, 1944<br />
Peter and I hadn't talked to each other all day, except for a few meaningless<br />
words. It was too cold to go up to the attic, and anyway, it was Margot's<br />
birthday. At twelve-thirty he came to look at the presents and hung around<br />
chatting longer than was strictly necessary, something he'd never have done<br />
otherwise. But I got my chance in the afternoon. Since I felt like spoiling Margot<br />
on her birthday, I went to get the coffee, and after that the potatoes. When I<br />
came to Peter's room, he immediately took his papers off the stairs, and I asked<br />
if I should close the trapdoor to the attic.<br />
"Sure," he said, "go ahead. When you're ready to come back down, just knock and<br />
I'll open it for you."<br />
I thanked him, went upstairs and spent at least ten minutes searching around in<br />
the barrel for the smallest potatoes. My back started aching, and the attic was<br />
cold. Naturally, I didn't bother to knock but opened the trap-door myself. But he<br />
obligingly got up and took the pan out of my hands.