THE DIARY OF A YOUNG GIRL : THE DEFINITIVE EDITION ... - Fidele
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That was the nicest thing he said all evening. He also told me that he didn't mind<br />
my coming to his room the way he used to; in fact, he liked it. I also told him<br />
that all of Father's and Mother's pet names were meaningless, that a kiss here and<br />
there didn't automatically lead to trust. We also talked about doing things your<br />
own way, the diary, loneliness, the difference between everyone's inner and outer<br />
selves, my mask, etc.<br />
It was wonderful. He must have come to love me as a friend, and, for the time<br />
being, that's enough. I'm so grateful and happy, I can't find the words. I must<br />
apolo- gize, Kitty, since my style is not up to my usual standard today. I've just<br />
written whatever came into my head!<br />
I have the feeling that Peter and I share a secret. Whenever he looks at me with<br />
those eyes, with that smile and that wink, it's as if a light goes on inside me. I<br />
hope things will stay like this and that we'll have many, many more happy hours<br />
together.<br />
Your grateful and happy Anne<br />
MONDAY, MARCH 20, 1944<br />
Dearest Kitty,<br />
This morning Peter asked me if I'd come again one evening. He swore I wouldn't be<br />
disturbing him, and said that where there was room for one, there was room for<br />
two. I said I couldn't see him every evening, since my parents didn't think it was<br />
a good idea, but he thought I shouldn't let that bother me. So I told him I'd like<br />
to come some Saturday evening and also asked him if he'd let me know when you<br />
could see the moon.<br />
"Sure," he said, "maybe we can go downstairs and look at the moon from there." I<br />
agreed; I'm not really so scared of burglars.<br />
In the meantime, a shadow has fallen on my happiness. For a long time I've had the<br />
feeling that Margot likes Peter. Just how much I don't know, but the whole<br />
situation is very unpleasant. Now every time I go see Peter I'm hurting her,<br />
without meaning to. The funny thing is that she hardly lets it show. I know I'd be<br />
insanely jealous, but Margot just says I shouldn't feel sorry for her.<br />
"I think it's so awful that you've become the odd one out," I added.<br />
"I'm used to that," she replied, somewhat bitterly.<br />
I don't dare tell Peter. Maybe later on, but he and I need to discuss so many<br />
other things first.<br />
Mother slapped me last night, which I deserved. I mustn't carry my indifference<br />
and contempt for her too far. In spite of everything, I should try once again to<br />
be friendly and keep my remarks to myself!<br />
Even Pim isn't as nice as he used to be. He's been trying not to treat me like a<br />
child, but now he's much too cold. We'll just have to see what comes of it! He's<br />
warned me that if I don't do my algebra, I won't get any tutoring after the war. I<br />
could simply wait and see what happens, but I'd like to start again, provided I<br />
get a new book.<br />
That's enough for now. I do nothing but gaze at Peter, and I'm filled to<br />
overflowing!