Best of Miami Portfolios 2001 - Units.muohio.edu
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Camilla Hileman—A Response To A Text<br />
The Illumination<br />
“Then he [Siddhartha] suddenly saw clearly that he was leading a strange life, that he was<br />
doing many things that were only a game, that he was quite cheerful and sometimes experienced<br />
pleasure, but that real life was flowing past him and did not touch him. Like a player who plays<br />
with his ball, he played with his business, with the people around him, watched them, derived<br />
amusement from them; but with his heart, with his real nature, he was not there” (Hesse 57-58).<br />
Siddhartha journeys through a backward discovery <strong>of</strong> the Self. He begins life as a handsome<br />
Brahmin’s son, admired and loved by family and friends. This life does not satisfy him, so he<br />
continues his search for the Self. He becomes a poor ascetic who relinquishes the material comforts<br />
<strong>of</strong> life. After many years, Siddhartha discovers that he cannot understand the Self by denying the<br />
Self. He awakens his senses by indulging in life’s pleasures. Soon, however, he becomes dependent<br />
on riches to give him happiness. The Self is buried underneath a burden <strong>of</strong> possessions. Success has<br />
only blocked his journey. Siddhartha travels to a peaceful riverbank and listens to the sounds <strong>of</strong> the<br />
water. The Self is quietly hidden in the voice <strong>of</strong> the river. The holy Om is bound to the Self and the<br />
waters in an indistinct pattern <strong>of</strong> perfection. Time lapses as Siddhartha recognizes the river as both<br />
the cause and culmination <strong>of</strong> his journey.<br />
Siddhartha’s entire life is a quest for the Self. He is led down many paths before he discovers<br />
the essence <strong>of</strong> true happiness and contentment. On his journey, he is blinded by superficial<br />
pleasures. He is tempted to believe that he has discovered the Self, but he must continue his search.<br />
Siddhartha is a novel that touches me deeply. I can see myself in the person <strong>of</strong> Siddhartha.<br />
I also question the life I lead. I am strangled in the paradox <strong>of</strong> materialistic pleasure versus genuine<br />
joy. Life is a continual struggle to appreciate simplicity. The mind can be entertained by an<br />
elaborate design <strong>of</strong> electricity that forms fuzzy pictures on a twelve-inch screen. The Self can be<br />
fulfilled by a pure rain that drops from the sky and drenches clothing. Yet, I have difficulty stepping<br />
away from life’s diversions. It rains outside, but my face is illuminated by the artificial glow <strong>of</strong> the<br />
TV.<br />
Siddhartha is challenged by wealth. As an ascetic, the Self is starved from a lack <strong>of</strong> physical<br />
necessities. As a rich man, Siddhartha’s life is overwhelmed with frivolous distractions. The Self is<br />
only affirmed when the outer world is simplified. The ferryman alone learns this delicate balance<br />
<strong>of</strong> needs and wants. At an old age, Siddhartha ultimately achieves an inner simplicity, an intimate<br />
peace.<br />
It is difficult for me to simplify my own life. I constantly find myself in a clutter <strong>of</strong><br />
obligations and promises, deferring one duty to accomplish another. I marvel at Siddhartha’s life as<br />
a ferryman. I envy his moments <strong>of</strong> inner contemplation. “There shone in his [Siddhartha’s] face the<br />
serenity <strong>of</strong> knowledge, <strong>of</strong> one who is no longer confronted with conflict <strong>of</strong> desires, who has found<br />
salvation, who is in harmony with the stream <strong>of</strong> events, with the stream <strong>of</strong> life, full <strong>of</strong> sympathy and<br />
compassion, surrendering himself to the stream, belonging to the unity <strong>of</strong> all things” (Hesse 111).<br />
I emulate the tranquility <strong>of</strong> his life.<br />
If I silently meditate about my life for a few moments, I can conjure up quite a few theories<br />
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