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fr uits of the WINTER RETREAT<br />
On Almsround<br />
by Phap Thanh<br />
W<br />
We went on almsround today. I walked slowly <strong>in</strong> meditation.<br />
My m<strong>in</strong>d focused on my steps, beh<strong>in</strong>d my elder brother. As I walked<br />
people offered me food. I opened the lid and held out my alms bowl<br />
to them.<br />
photo by Emily Whittle<br />
In the Buddha’s time, each day<br />
monastics would walk <strong>in</strong>to the<br />
local town where they would be<br />
offered food. Dur<strong>in</strong>g the w<strong>in</strong>ter<br />
retreat at Deer Park, on two<br />
occasions the monastics and<br />
lay community gathered at local<br />
parks, to honor this tradition.<br />
As I walked on, <strong>in</strong> the corner of my eye I saw a little girl, about<br />
three years old, <strong>in</strong> her mother’s arms. I realized that the little girl<br />
wanted to offer someth<strong>in</strong>g to me, so I stopped and looked at her. She<br />
had an apple <strong>in</strong> her hands. She held it tightly. Her mother encouraged<br />
her to put the apple <strong>in</strong>to my open bowl. <strong>The</strong> little girl was hesitant;<br />
there seemed to be a resistance <strong>in</strong> her. Very, very slowly she began to<br />
lower the apple <strong>in</strong>to my begg<strong>in</strong>g bowl. I stood quietly, observ<strong>in</strong>g this<br />
wonderful and slow process. She lowered the apple a little further <strong>in</strong>to<br />
my bowl, but it seemed that she was not ready to let it go.<br />
With more encouragement from her mother, she then released her<br />
grip on the apple and it rolled <strong>in</strong>to my bowl. I could sense the little<br />
girl was ambivalent about lett<strong>in</strong>g go of someth<strong>in</strong>g so wonderful and<br />
precious as this apple. I offered her a smile and bowed a thank you.<br />
I felt very grateful for hav<strong>in</strong>g been the witness of that moment <strong>in</strong><br />
the little girl’s life. Maybe this was the first time she encountered the<br />
pa<strong>in</strong>ful feel<strong>in</strong>g of giv<strong>in</strong>g someth<strong>in</strong>g away that was precious to her and<br />
at the same moment the joyous feel<strong>in</strong>g of giv<strong>in</strong>g to benefit someone<br />
else. When she f<strong>in</strong>ally dropped the apple, it seemed like a new experience<br />
for her, like a relief.<br />
I closed the lid of my bowl and walked on with slow steps. I felt<br />
very happy to carry this apple <strong>in</strong> my bowl, because with it I carried the<br />
little girl’s compassion. I carried the little girl’s experience of giv<strong>in</strong>g<br />
away her own food to someone else, someone that she didn’t know.<br />
Later on the whole Sangha sat down to eat together <strong>in</strong> silence. I<br />
held the little girl’s apple <strong>in</strong> my hands and I still felt grateful for her<br />
sacrifice, for the pa<strong>in</strong> she was go<strong>in</strong>g through to release it. I felt, with an<br />
apple given like this, many people could be fed. From this one apple,<br />
thousands of hungry children could eat and satisfy their burn<strong>in</strong>g hunger.<br />
I felt, with this generous attitude the little girl had shown towards me,<br />
so many starv<strong>in</strong>g children <strong>in</strong> the world could be fed. I ate the apple<br />
very slowly and tears ran down my cheeks.<br />
Phap Thanh is from Germany and<br />
currently lives <strong>in</strong> Plum Village.<br />
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