Chapter 13 100impulse was to seek help at the gaming-table, whither his new friends had often tempted him. But he hadpromised Mr Bhaer to resist what then had seemed an impossible temptation; and now he would not addanother fault to the list already so long. Borrow he would not, nor beg. What could he do? For these appallingbills must be paid, and the lessons go on; or his journey was an ignominious failure. But he must livemeantime. And how? Bowed down with remorse for the folly of these months, he saw too late whither he wasdrifting, and for hours paced up and down his pretty rooms, floundering in a Slough of Despond, with nohelping hand to pull him out--at least he thought so till letters were <strong>br</strong>ought in, and among fresh bills lay onewell-worn envelope with an American stamp in the corner.Ah, how welcome it was! how eagerly he read the long pages full of affectionate wishes from all at home! Foreveryone had sent a line, and as each familiar name appeared, his eyes grew dimmer and dimmer till, as heread the last--'God bless my boy! Mother Bhaer'--he <strong>br</strong>oke down; and laying his head on his arms, blisteredthe paper with a rain of tears that eased his heart and washed away the boyish sins that now lay so heavy onhis conscience.'Dear people, how they love and trust me! And how bitterly they would be disappointed if they knew what afool I've been! I'll fiddle in the streets again before I'll ask for help from them!' cried Nat, <strong>br</strong>ushing away thetears of which he was ashamed, although he felt the good they had done.Now he seemed to see more clearly what to do; for the helping hand had been stretched across the sea, andLove, the dear Evangelist, had lifted him out of the slough and shown him the narrow gate, beyond whichdeliverance lay. When the letter had been reread, and one corner where a daisy was painted, passionatelykissed, Nat felt strong enough to face the worst and conquer it. Every bill should be paid, every salable thingof his own sold, these costly rooms given up; and once back with thrifty Frau Tetzel, he would find work ofsome sort by which to support himself, as many another student did. He must give up the new friends, turn hisback on the gay life, cease to be a butterfly, and take his place among the grubs. It was the only honest thingto do, but very hard for the poor fellow to crush his little vanities, renounce the delights so dear to the young,own his folly, and step down from his pedestal to be pitied, laughed at, and forgotten.It took all Nat's pride and courage to do this, for his was a sensitive nature; esteem was very precious to him,failure very bitter, and nothing but the inborn contempt for meanness and deceit kept him from asking help ortrying to hide his need by some dishonest device. As he sat alone that night, Mr Bhaer's words came back tohim with curious clearness, and he saw himself a boy again at Plumfield, punishing his teacher as a lesson tohimself, when timidity had made him lie.'He shall not suffer for me again, and I won't be a sneak if I am a fool. I'll go and tell Professor Baumgarten allabout it and ask his advice. I'd rather face a loaded cannon; but it must be done. Then I'll sell out, pay mydebts, and go back where I belong. Better be an honest pauper than a jackdaw among peacocks'; and Natsmiled in the midst of his trouble, as he looked about him at the little elegancies of his room, rememberingwhat he came from.He kept his word manfully, and was much comforted to find that his experience was an old story to theprofessor, who approved his plan, thinking wisely that the discipline would be good for him, and was verykind in offering help and promising to keep the secret of his folly from his friend Bhaer till Nat had redeemedhimself.The first week of the new year was spent by our prodigal in carrying out his plan with penitent dispatch, andhis birthday found him alone in the little room high up at Frau Tetzel's, with nothing of his former splendour,but sundry unsalable keepsakes from the buxom maidens, who mourned his absence deeply. His male friendshad ridiculed, pitied, and soon left him alone, with one or two exceptions, who offered their purses generouslyand promised to stand by him. He was lonely and heavy-hearted, and sat <strong>br</strong>ooding over his small fire as heremembered the last New Year's Day at Plumfield, when at this hour he was dancing with his Daisy.
Chapter 14 101A tap at the door roused him, and with a careless 'Herein', he waited to see who had climbed so far for hissake. It was the good Frau proudly bearing a tray, on which stood a bottle of wine and an astonishing cakebedecked with sugar-plums of every hue, and crowned with candles. Fraulein Vogelstein followed, em<strong>br</strong>acinga blooming rose-tree, above which her grey curls waved and her friendly face beamed joyfully as she cried:'Dear Herr Blak, we <strong>br</strong>ing you greetings and a little gift or two in honour of this ever-to-be-remembered day.Best wishes! and may the new year bloom for you as beautifully as we your heart-warm friends desire.''Yes, yes, in truth we do, dear Herr,' added Frau Tetzel. 'Eat of this with-joy-made Kuchen, and drink to thehealth of the far-away beloved ones in the good wine.'Amused, yet touched by the kindness of the good souls, Nat thanked them both, and made them stay to enjoythe humble feast with him. This they gladly did, being motherly women full of pity for the dear youth, whosestraits they knew, and having substantial help to offer, as well as kind words and creature comforts.Frau Tetzel, with some hesitation, mentioned a friend of hers who, forced by illness to leave his place in theorchestra of a second-rate theatre, would gladly offer it to Nat, if he could accept so humble a position.Blushing and toying with the roses like a shy girl, good old Vogelstein asked if in his leisure moments hecould give English lessons in the young ladies' school where she taught painting, adding that a small butcertain salary would be paid him.Gratefully Nat accepted both offers, finding it less humiliating to be helped by women than by friends of hisown sex. This work would support him in a frugal way, and certain musical drudgery promised by his masterassured his own teaching. Delighted with the success of their little plot, these friendly neighbours left himwith cheery words, warm hand-grasps, and faces beaming with feminine satisfaction at the hearty kiss Nat puton each faded cheek, as the only return he could make for all their helpful kindness.It was strange how much <strong>br</strong>ighter the world looked after that; for hope was a better cordial than the wine, andgood resolutions bloomed as freshly as the little rose-tree that filled the room with fragrance, as Nat woke theechoes with the dear old airs, finding now as always his best comforter in music, to whom henceforth heswore to be a more loyal subject.Chapter 14PLAYS AT PLUMFIELDAs it is as impossible for the humble historian of the March family to write a story without theatricals in it asfor our dear Miss Yonge to get on with less than twelve or fourteen children in her interesting tales, we willaccept the fact, and at once cheer ourselves after the last afflicting events, by proceeding to the Christmasplays at Plumfield; for they influence the fate of several of our characters, and cannot well be skipped.When the college was built Mr Laurie added a charming little theatre which not only served for plays, butdeclamations, lectures, and concerts. The drop-curtain displayed Apollo with the Muses grouped about him;and as a compliment to the donor of the hall the artist had given the god a decided resemblance to our friend,which was considered a superb joke by everyone else. Home talent furnished stars, stock company, orchestra,and scene painter; and astonishing performances were given on this pretty little stage.Mrs Jo had been trying for some time to produce a play which should be an improvement upon theadaptations from the French then in vogue, curious mixtures of fine toilettes, false sentiment, and feeble wit,with no touch of nature to redeem them. It was easy to plan plays full of noble speeches and thrillingsituations, but very hard to write them; so she contented herself with a few scenes of humble life in which thecomic and pathetic were mingled; and as she fitted her characters to her actors, she hoped the little venture
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