Chapter 21 146crazy fancy of mine, and nothing can ever come of it. Never thought there would. Good Lord! what could thatlittle angel ever be to me but what she is--a sort of dream of all that's sweet and good?'More afflicted by the quiet resignation of his look and tone than by the most passionate ardour, Mrs Jo couldonly say, with a face full of sympathy:'It is very hard, dear, but there is no other way to look at it. You are wise and <strong>br</strong>ave enough to see that, and tolet the secret be ours alone.''I swear I will! not a word nor a look if I can help it. No one guesses, and if it troubles no one, is there anyharm in my keeping this, and taking comfort in the pretty fancy that kept me sane in that cursed place?'Dan's face was eager now, and he hid away the little worn case as if defying any hand to take it from him.Anxious to know everything before giving counsel or comfort, Mrs Jo said quietly:'Keep it, and tell me all about the "fancy". Since I have stumbled on your secret, let me know how it came,and how I can help to make it lighter to bear.''You'll laugh; but I don't mind. You always did find out our secrets and give us a lift. Well, I never caredmuch for books, you know; but down yonder when the devil tormented me I had to do something or go starkmad, so I read both the books you gave me. One was beyond me, till that good old man showed me how toread it; but the other, this one, was a comfort, I tell you. It amused me, and was as pretty as poetry. I liked 'emall, and most wore out Sintram. See how used up he is! Then I came to this, and it sort of fitted that otherhappy part of my life, last summer--here.'Dan stopped a moment as the words lingered on his lips; then, with a long <strong>br</strong>eath, went on, as if it was hard tolay bare the foolish little romance he had woven about a girl, a picture, and a child's story there in the darknessof the place which was as terrible to him as Dante's Inferno, till he found his Beatrice.'I couldn't sleep, and had to think about something, so I used to fancy I was Folko, and see the shining ofAslauga's hair in the sunset on the wall, the gum of the watchman's lamp, and the light that came in at dawn.My cell was high. I could see a bit of sky; sometimes there was a star in it, and that was most as good as aface. I set great store by that patch of blue, and when a white cloud went by, I thought it was the prettiest thingin all this world. I guess I was pretty near a fool; but those thoughts and things helped me through, so they areall solemn true to me, and I can't let them go. The dear shiny head, the white gown, the eyes like stars, andsweet, calm ways that set her as high above me as the moon in heaven. Don't take it away! it's only a fancy,but a man must love something, and I'd better love a spirit like her than any of the poor common girls whowould care for me.'The quiet despair in Dan's voice pierced Mrs Jo to the heart; but there was no hope and she gave none. Yet shefelt that he was right, and that his hapless affection might do more to uplift and purify him than any other hemight know. Few women would care to marry Dan now, except such as would hinder, not help, him in thestruggle which life would always be to him; and it was better to go solitary to his grave than become what shesuspected his father had been--a handsome, unprincipled, and dangerous man, with more than one <strong>br</strong>okenheart to answer for.'Yes, Dan, it is wise to keep this innocent fancy, if it helps and comforts you, till something more real andpossible comes to make you happier. I wish I could give you any hope; but we both know that the dear child isthe apple of her father's eye, the pride of her mother's heart, and that the most perfect lover they can find willhardly seem to them worthy of their precious daughter. Let her remain for you the high, <strong>br</strong>ight star that leadsyou up and makes you believe in heaven.' Mrs Jo <strong>br</strong>oke down there; it seemed so cruel to destroy the fainthope Dan's eyes betrayed, that she could not moralize when she thought of his hard life and lonely future.
Chapter 22 147Perhaps it was the wisest thing she could have done, for in her hearty sympathy he found comfort for his ownloss, and very soon was able to speak again in the manly tone of resignation to the inevitable that showed howhonest was his effort to give up everything but the pale shadow of what, for another, might have been a happypossibility.They talked long and earnestly in the twilight; and this second secret bound them closer than the first; for in itthere was neither sin nor shame--only the tender pain and patience which has made saints and heroes of farworse men than our poor Dan. When at length they rose at the summons of a bell, all the sunset glory haddeparted, and in the wintry sky there hung one star, large, soft, and clear, above a snowy world. Pausing at thewindow before she dropped the curtains, Mrs Jo said cheerfully:'Come and see how beautiful the evening star is, since you love it so.' And as he stood behind her, tall andpale, like the ghost of his former self, she added softly: 'And remember, dear, if the sweet girl is denied you,the old friend is always here--to love and trust and pray for you.'This time she was not disappointed; and had she asked any reward for many anxieties and cares, she receivedit when Dan's strong arm came round her, as he said, in a voice which showed her that she had not laboured invain to pluck her fire<strong>br</strong>and from the burning:'I never can forget that; for she's helped to save my soul, and make me dare to look up there and say:"God bless her!"'Chapter 22POSITIVELY LAST APPEARANCE'Upon my word, I feel as if I lived in a powder-magazine, and don't know which barrel will explode next, andsend me flying,' said Mrs Jo to herself next day, as she trudged up to Parnassus to suggest to her sister thatperhaps the most charming of the young nurses had better return to her marble gods before she unconsciouslyadded another wound to those already won by the human hero. She told no secrets; but a hint was sufficient;for Mrs Amy guarded her daughter as a pearl of great price, and at once devised a very simple means ofescape from danger. Mr Laurie was going to Washington on Dan's behalf, and was delighted to take hisfamily with him when the idea was carelessly suggested. So the conspiracy succeeded finely; and Mrs Jo wenthome, feeling more like a traitor than ever. She expected an explosion; but Dan took the news so quietly, itwas plain that he cherished no hope; and Mrs Amy was sure her romantic sister had been mistaken. If she hadseen Dan's face when Bess went to say good-bye, her maternal eye would have discovered far more than theunconscious girl did. Mrs Jo trembled lest he should betray himself; but he had learned self-control in a sternschool, and would have got through the hard moment <strong>br</strong>avely, only, when he took both hands, saying heartily:'Good-bye, Princess. If we don't meet again, remember your old friend Dan sometimes,' she, touched by hislate danger and the wistful look he wore, answered with unusual warmth: 'How can I help it, when you makeus all so proud of you? God bless your mission, and <strong>br</strong>ing you safely home to us again!'As she looked up at him with a face full of frank affection and sweet regret, all that he was losing rose sovividly before him that Dan could not resist the impulse to take the 'dear goldy head' between his hands andkiss it, with a <strong>br</strong>oken 'Good-bye'; then hurried back to his room, feeling as if it were the prison-cell again, withno glimpse of heaven's blue to comfort him.This a<strong>br</strong>upt caress and departure rather startled Bess; for she felt with a girl's quick instinct that there wassomething in that kiss unknown before, and looked after him with sudden colour in her cheeks and newtrouble in her eyes. Mrs Jo saw it, and fearing a very natural question answered it before it was put.
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