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<strong>The</strong> <strong>Sleeping</strong> <strong>Wall</strong><br />
Summer rain. Swarming bees, a flying carpet of brown that bristles and dips over the lawn. A<br />
dark upwelling of dropping bodies.<br />
She smiles if I make a mistake and guides my finger to the correct key. Eyes like black glass. I<br />
lean my head against her shoulder.<br />
Father is late. Mother will play the piano when he enters, coat thrown over his arm. She will<br />
ignore him when he kisses the place on her neck beneath her chignon and whispers her name.<br />
Ignore the sound of ice cubes dropping into his glass.<br />
I am a girl who steps and turns a hundred times without getting dizzy. I am the vortex of my red<br />
skirt. <strong>The</strong> cut of red against white walls.<br />
In bed, I see myself through the wrong end of a telescope. My image gets smaller and smaller<br />
until I am a black spot in a tiny round lens. <strong>The</strong> dog scratches at my door. I do not blink or move<br />
a finger.<br />
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Lilacs everywhere and buds broken into green. Turn the corner, cross the street. Pass the low<br />
brick wall. <strong>The</strong> closer Medina gets to home the more she is lost.<br />
From the front steps, her mother’s music streams through the open window. Discordant and<br />
rude. Notes like broken words. Notes like the sounds of enraged birds.<br />
Up the stairs, past bookcases, cupboards, to her mother’s closet. She is smaller here, dwarfed by<br />
the satin gowns fluffed out with tissue paper, held in plastic bags.<br />
Music rises through floorboards. She opens the turquoise jewelry box. Each ring in its own slot.<br />
Earrings paired in rows. Charm bracelet coiled and still. Between the tiny harp and bell an<br />
empty loop.<br />
Her stomach hurts. She swallows bile, slides the bracelet into the toe of a black high-heeled shoe.<br />
<strong>The</strong> slammed bedroom door. La-la-la. Her mother sings the broken melody. Quiet as a lamb,<br />
Medina holds her breath until she thinks she will die. La-la-la. She prays for the Virgin’s voice<br />
to fill her.<br />
Through a crack in the door, she sees her mother’s feet in high heels pace and pace. <strong>The</strong> phone<br />
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