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<strong>The</strong> <strong>Sleeping</strong> <strong>Wall</strong><br />
Lift and pull of paddle. Wind at their backs. A raccoon’s churring knifes through her. <strong>The</strong><br />
boys pass the thermos. She watched James kneel between their beds, a supplicant. He<br />
touched their foreheads and they stirred in sleep.<br />
Mother always held my hand. I remember that one thing most. Walking through fields, the<br />
distant line of drumlins changing color with the light. My hand warm in hers. <strong>The</strong> rustle of her<br />
skirts.<br />
<strong>The</strong> wind ceases. Cold stills them. Philip’s red mittens. Michael’s scarf wrapped round and<br />
round. Wine in a flask. Night washes over them. <strong>The</strong> canoe, for a moment, motionless,<br />
hangs on time. Fish numbed by winter’s last breath. Limb of birch, blind sentinels.<br />
5<br />
His hands on the steering wheel. Past the crossroads, moss-patched houses. Porches<br />
strewn with pine needles. Snow on the windshield, the highway hurtling toward the horizon.<br />
Taste of Mai. Dim light spreads over sloping hills. Snowflakes spiral.<br />
Huett’s water raked by wind. <strong>The</strong> untouched piano. Medina’s musky scent on every surface. Her<br />
hair black orchids or ravens. He can’t bear to touch her. He can’t bear not to touch her. Mornings,<br />
he wakes like a crazy man.<br />
Left onto Route 9, past fields cold in the encroaching dark. He searches the glove box for<br />
a tape hidden behind wadded Kleenex, a child’s plastic gun. Mai had turned, exposing the<br />
thin skin of her neck. He’d filled her mouth with his fingers.<br />
<strong>The</strong> iron bed with chipped white paint. Medina’s bracelets on the dresser, cold silver reflections in<br />
the mirror. Her way of lifting her hair exposing a web of veins pulsing at her temples.<br />
At the crossroads, an animal’s eyes, ovals of hard reflected light. His secret life is an affliction.<br />
His students look at him with open mouths. He takes comfort from nothing. Only<br />
his sons. Only Mai who smells of plums.<br />
An owl sweeps over the road. He thinks of his sons running, always running, through<br />
forests of birch. Appearing, disappearing behind white columns. Flickering children in a<br />
movie that spins round on a reel.<br />
Medina at the end of the dock, a child on either side. <strong>The</strong>y turn toward him. <strong>Wall</strong> of water. <strong>The</strong><br />
horizon. Molten metal below. Above, falling fire.<br />
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