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Jane M. Downs<br />
<strong>The</strong> wet field. Lilac air. She turned in widening circles. Wild iris. <strong>The</strong> broken stems of violets.<br />
12<br />
Drink the wine. Wind the clock. She stripped each room bare as the inside of winter. Yet,<br />
they are everywhere. Philips’s mouth stained with blackberries. Michael’s flat shadow on<br />
the wall. James’s hands opened over piano keys.<br />
How lovely when she touched them, warm skin yielding beneath her hand.<br />
<strong>The</strong> dream about pulling Philip out of the lake, dressing him in warm clothes. <strong>The</strong> dream<br />
where he runs through the house calling for her. Crazy patterns on the floor.<br />
She sees them in the Old Town. She sits in the bow, James in the stern, the boys bundled<br />
between them. Each stroke a measure. Lift and pull. Beat after beat.<br />
Winter’s violence approaches on the feathered wings of geese. <strong>The</strong> cold slows the lake.<br />
She cannot describe it. Something at the horizon’s edge. Cold light falling. She closes her<br />
eyes. She wants to be numb.<br />
13<br />
<strong>The</strong> clock’s chimes wake her. Empty beds. His closet door ajar. Bare wire hangers. Her<br />
mind choked with memories.<br />
Haunted birch. Candlelight. Lilacs everywhere. <strong>The</strong>y waded beyond the dock. She floated in his<br />
arms. <strong>The</strong>y danced in the water, toes dipping into the sand. Her hair wet against her shoulders.<br />
She knows every bend of shoreline, every plant and tree. She draws a map in her mind.<br />
Counts trees. Traces pathways to hidden nests. She knows where bats retreat at dawn.<br />
Cut iris in a crystal vase. Pearls on white gloves. <strong>The</strong> bells of Saint John’s. She saw a roan horse.<br />
Its red-rimmed eye. Birch like the spines of the dead. <strong>The</strong> iron taste of lake water. Forgotten<br />
things in pockets.<br />
She thinks she can imagine almost anything. <strong>The</strong> meadow a sea of green. Her sons racing<br />
ahead. Flowers that open only at night. A moving sky. She should have dropped to her<br />
knees.<br />
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