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Jane M. Downs<br />
I wind my music box. Inside the glass, a ballerina wheels around to carousel music, her tutu a<br />
stiff pink cloud. Her tiny perfect arm curves upward. One leg forever bends behind her. <strong>The</strong> key<br />
turns. I never let it stop.<br />
Her eyes close and it all vanishes. She must not forget anything.<br />
Cream-white paper stacked on Father’s mahogany desk. On the chair his sweater exhales dark<br />
scents of cigar and roasted meat. A photograph taken the day he left for Europe, before his<br />
ruined leg. Tall and crisp in his army uniform, Mother’s tailored white suit. Behind them, bare<br />
trees against winter sky.<br />
<strong>The</strong>ir sons are animal-like in their investigations. <strong>The</strong>y love the things they trap and keep<br />
in jars. White-bellied spiders. Small cocoons. Fireflies that beat against the glass.<br />
Inside the silver frame, Father’s wide smile, the jaunty slant of hat. Mother lifts her face to gaze<br />
into his eyes. His arm protects her. His eyes adore her. <strong>The</strong> carousel music slows. I turn the key.<br />
Yellow moon. Summer ends. Fields and orchards wait to be relieved. She hears a raccoon<br />
screech. Rain gurgles in the gutters.<br />
<strong>The</strong> rat-tat-tat of mother’s heels. Hands flutter, charms clatter. She lifts the piano hood. Her<br />
music sings inside me, and my heart races. Her music holds me, and I am inside it.<br />
10<br />
On the mantle a photograph. Philip beside her on the dock. Michael on her hip. <strong>The</strong> lake<br />
a shining disk between sky and earth. She missed the moment of her perfection, but the<br />
camera paid attention. <strong>The</strong> shutter opened and shut. Her image caught in the dark chamber.<br />
11<br />
A sea, a swarm, all the world a single mass in motion. She tries to slow it. She smokes. She<br />
drinks. She counts the clock’s chimes.<br />
She walks in the meadow where rain has bred yellow hawkweed and wild iris. Michael<br />
runs to her; a feather floats in his hand.<br />
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