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<strong>The</strong> <strong>Sleeping</strong> <strong>Wall</strong><br />
She rocks the hammock. Philip’s eyes snap open. A black bird crows, then another and<br />
another until the tree screams.<br />
2<br />
A glass of milk slides through Michael’s hands. Shattered glass in a pool of white.<br />
James had said, We make our own history. We make choices. She pulls his shirt around<br />
her, slides his hunting knife into her jeans.<br />
Mother’s hands come down hard on ivory keys. Eyes closed, she leans into the piano. I sink into<br />
my chair, mouth words to made-up songs. Chair, piano, even Mother, are made of sound. Things<br />
I can put my hand through.<br />
Drawers of mismatched silverware, unused marrow spoons. She grabs a corkscrew. <strong>The</strong><br />
foil over the bottle top slices her finger. Blood on a plate. Blood on his shirt. Tap water of<br />
rust. Her bracelets clang against porcelain. Spring snow falls through birch. Snow melts<br />
into the lake.<br />
Cattails and lily pads. I float, my unbound hair flowing around me. I dive to the bottom in<br />
search of fronds in the dim green. I dive to where light fades and my fingers turn cold. Even here,<br />
the current a kind of music.<br />
Window fogged by steam. Hot dog water thick with fleshy scum. Philip’s eyes the sharp<br />
tips of daggers. Michael’s rabbity bites. Red wine hot in her throat. With the tip of her<br />
cigarette she lights another. Pour another glass. Another glass.<br />
Mother’s eyes veined yellow by lamplight, my face between her hands. Music records history, she<br />
says; you learn what was forbidden, for that is where the music comes from. A wisp of hair floats<br />
over her forehead. I dare not touch it.<br />
Bitter wine. Sunset. No wind. With snow, a sudden chill as if the day’s heat was an accident.<br />
She runs to the boathouse, trails her hand over the Old Town’s wooden gunnels.<br />
She looks at her hands, broken lifelines on both palms.<br />
3<br />
At the window she sees headlights, but it is the last of daylight clinging to birch. Her hand<br />
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