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<strong>The</strong> <strong>Sleeping</strong> <strong>Wall</strong><br />
She is tired. She listens to him close the door. From Saigon, to the Philippines, L.A., New<br />
York. No one left to run to. She accepts this place of spruce and snow. Birch like mist<br />
twisting up from rice fields. She is grateful for her scholarship. For this man with ice-blue<br />
eyes who tries to heal them both with his hands.<br />
5<br />
Medina accuses James of not loving her. Of trying to hurt her. Her flushed face. Her<br />
mouth stretched tight, stained with wine.<br />
He can’t tell her of Mai, who writes poems in black notebooks. That he is overwhelmed<br />
by a submission to all he had buried after the war.<br />
She accuses him of not loving her. Of avoiding her. He begins to pace. She grabs his arm.<br />
“Stop. Look at me. Touch me.” Her elbow sends a glass crashing to the floor.<br />
He can’t tell her he is unraveling thread by thread. Of Mai whose body gives reprieve.<br />
Whose room holds a brass Buddha polished by candle light.<br />
He leads her to the piano, covers her hands with his own. Directs them to play familiar<br />
patterns. She softens beside him. She weeps. He kisses her mouth.<br />
“You are my life. Our sons are my life.” Lying beside her, he strokes her. She comes in long<br />
waves. She cries out. He holds his hand against her mouth. He knows he is falling away. It<br />
is the vanishing that betrays her.<br />
6<br />
Silhouette of birch. Early birdsong. A child’s fort built of branches and leaves. Children’s<br />
footprints in the sandy grass. Medina wraps herself in her wool shawl, watches her sons<br />
fight with sticks thin as switches. “En garde.” Philip advances. Michael retreats. Hiss of<br />
sticks. <strong>The</strong> dog jumps and snaps. Imagined wounds.<br />
She holds out her hand for their weapons. Philip throws his at her feet, salutes and turns<br />
away. She does not see the child, only his anger. She grabs his arm. He wrenches loose to<br />
disappear into the fort, a house too fragile to hold him.<br />
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