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were full of the sense of their mother. They preferred themselves to suffer the misery of celibacy, rather than risk the other person. He went back to her. Something in her, when he looked at her, brought the tears almost to his eyes. One day he stood behind her as she sang. Annie was playing a song on the piano. As Miriam sang her mouth seemed hopeless. She sang like a nun singing to heaven. It reminded him so much of the mouth and eyes of one who sings beside a Botticelli Madonna, so spiritual. Again, hot as steel, came up the pain in him. Why must he ask her for the other thing? Why was there his blood battling with her? If only he could have been always gentle, tender with her, breathing with her the atmosphere of reverie and religious dreams, he would give his right hand. It was not fair to hurt her. There seemed an eternal maidenhood about her; and when he thought of her mother, he saw the great brown eyes of a maiden who was nearly scared and shocked out of her virgin maidenhood, but not quite, in spite of her seven children. They had been born almost leaving her out of count, not of her, but upon her. So she could never let them go, because she never had possessed them. Mrs. Morel saw him going again frequently to Miriam, and was astonished. He said nothing to his mother. He did not explain nor excuse himself. If he came home late, and she reproached him, he frowned and turned on her in an overbearing way: "I shall come home when I like," he said; "I am old enough." "Must she keep you till this time?" "It is I who stay," he answered. "And she lets you? But very well," she said. And she went to bed, leaving the door unlocked for him; but she lay listening until he came, often long after. It was a great bitterness to her that he had gone back to Miriam. She recognised, however, the uselessness of any further interference. He went to Willey Farm as a man now, not as a youth. She had no right over him. There was a coldness between him and her. He hardly told her anything. Discarded, she waited on him, cooked for him still, and loved to slave for him; but her face closed again like a mask. There was nothing for her to do now but the housework; for all the rest he had gone to Miriam. She could not forgive him. Miriam killed the joy and the warmth in him. He had been such a jolly lad, and full of the warmest affection; now he grew colder, more and more irritable and gloomy. It reminded her of William; but Paul was worse. He did things with more intensity, and more realisation of what he was about. His mother knew how he was suffering for want of a woman, and she saw him going to Miriam. If he had made up his mind, nothing on earth would alter him. Mrs. Morel was tired. She began to give up at last; she had finished. She was in the way.
He went on determinedly. He realised more or less what his mother felt. It only hardened his soul. He made himself callous towards her; but it was like being callous to his own health. It undermined him quickly; yet he persisted. He lay back in the rocking-chair at Willey Farm one evening. He had been talking to Miriam for some weeks, but had not come to the point. Now he said suddenly: "I am twenty-four, almost." She had been brooding. She looked up at him suddenly in surprise. "Yes. What makes you say it?"
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"You can have your dinner as soon a
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onnet and her cloak. She smiled whe
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of the cut pastures. The sky overhe
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said Morel. He was extraordinarily
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experience of what being a man mean
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He came and bowed above her. A warm
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He had signed the pledge, and wore
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"Eighty pound, if you're so keen on
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"Did he?" "Yes, he did." The other
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one Sunday morning, to the chatter
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The pity was, she was too much his
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"I'm not sure I wouldn't rather be
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of face that seems to lack eyelashe
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as having some occult, malevolent p
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"Comin' home in his what?" he snarl
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olt behind her with a bang. Then he
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Her quietened heart beginning to be
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CHAPTER II THE BIRTH OF PAUL, AND A
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"Yi--there's one big 'un," he repli
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"Eh!" said Mrs. Anthony. "You can f
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And he went on striking. He was tir
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"What is it?" she asked, feeling si
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"Go now," she said. "I will, my las
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"Goodness!" cried Mrs. Morel. "Mr.
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Whereupon Mrs. Morel, trying to soo
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Suddenly, looking at him, the heavy
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anything it'll make my blood boil,"
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he went across to her, swayed, caug
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"I can do it myself," she replied.
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Immediately he had finished tea he
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"So you filch sixpence out of my pu
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"Why, where should you have gone? Y
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He had a fine constitution, so that
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and tenderness between the separati
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"'Appen 'e is, but that doesn't giv
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But that evening Morel came in from
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And, glaring at the boy, he ran for
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She was very proud of her son. He w
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"And why didn't you tell me?" "Beca
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His mother implored him to take mor
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'I told mother about you this morni
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the face of the hidden doll. Annie
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"Why, what have I done to the child
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So they were happy in the morning--
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of anxiety and expectation in the r
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"Oh, nothing--about famous women."
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This Morel loved to do. "Well, ther
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"Nothing," he replied. But he ate n
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"This childt's axin' for thee; how
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have died rather. "Good gracious!"
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No window was open. Sometimes in wi
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Paul went to the counter. "Seventee
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put it before him. Suddenly he turn
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So the boy remained alone. Mrs. Mor
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Paul was waiting for her. He loved
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Paul looked in the oven; tapped the
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out of this way and went into the f
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home again. Morel hated to go back.
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Christmas Eve. Mrs. Morel surveyed
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cheerily, and immediately began to
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He had brought them endless present
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"I don't know for sure, but it's 'i
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"A comb, a knife and fork and spoon
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with wonderful healing flesh, and s
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So she talked to her son, almost as
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measuring people against himself, a
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Therefore he was soon visiting and
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tight inside him. He would have suf
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of the dragon. They emerged into a
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"Where did you learn to write?" sai
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school now." "He would live in Best
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she's taking that man HIS pudding,
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every second as the flowers was goi
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"She should have her own money if s
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He had the season-ticket, which had
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Paul was led round to a very dark c
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eappeared coatless, turning up a sm
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"You'd better watch me," he said to
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the "Mr." Then all at once Mr. Jord
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"I never said it WAS your fault. Wi
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with so much that she expected her
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When he came in at eight in the mor
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At the end of the song Fanny would
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up two long hills, down two short h
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and driving them nearly mad, while
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"Oh no, we had dinner in the train.
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"It isn't, really!" "You are cold,"
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to everybody's discomfort, and took
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"Was she REALLY getting up when she
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"Won't you go to bed, then?" he ask
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Paul hurried off to the station jub
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"Too young for me, though, I'm afra
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"It's a wild road, mother," said Pa
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"Oh no! We're only too thankful to
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Maurice took his hand full of corn
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"See, it doesn't hurt," he said, an
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Hawthorn was dropping from the hedg
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And in the evening, after supper, h
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"Oh, well, I've gone too far to bre
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for her--a bit of a theatrical show
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So she took cheer. Matters were not
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her nightdress, a comb and brush, s
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"Tha wants Walter Morel? Go in thee
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On Saturday night, as Paul was turn
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her brass candlestick glittering. T
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sat looking blankly in front of her
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of her for love. "For some things,"
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to have as easy a time as he could,
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She helped him off with his coat. H
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"HAVE they, mother?" she cried. "I
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went running because of a few burnt
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He crouched down and carefully put
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"No," he answered. "Where?" "In the
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"I've had a long turn," he said. "B
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"Why DO you?" he asked. "I don't kn
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"Don't!" repeated the child, a frow
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"Ha! Is it? Men have everything." "
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eyes blazed at him. "You don't give
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For many hours she sat still, sligh
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thrilled her, something holy. He wa
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His soul, warm and exposed from con
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Then the next time he saw Miriam he
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Paul looked down the garden for his
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"You should see the Flying Scotsman
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"What is it?" she asked. "The sprin
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loved him for that. Her soul expand
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"Supposing you could have THAT farm
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upon the tree-tops of the oak-wood
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her head and pondered. How could it
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It caused a violent conflict in him
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with the girl, and Mrs. Morel was t
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"I canna see what they want drownin
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"All right," he answered. And when
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against it. His blood was concentra
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abbiting in the woods, like a poach
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"If I'm not SICK!" she cried sudden
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Morel put down his knife and leaned
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"Both first?" "Yes." "H'm!" There w
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He looked at her companion. "I've t
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The boy glanced away. But the smith
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Miriam bowed a little lower. "Yes,"
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"I'm so damned spiritual with YOU a
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"That's all right!" he said. She wa
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"Yes." He knew she was cross with h
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He never went past the pits at nigh
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hours when he knew Miriam was expec
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Orion was for them chief in signifi
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"Oh, my sirs!" he said. "Wheer's my
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drawing herself up to imitate her h
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"Well, I shouldn't be surprised any
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"Not yet," he smiled. "Then, why di
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"Don't what, I should like to know?
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"Send it to Liberty's. I did it for
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"Then you wanted a job," said Beatr
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she exclaimed. She tilted his head
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a tale about his work making him fo
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with Leonard and Annie. She would m
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Her dark eyes were naked with their
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Miriam looked in the bookcase, saw
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Mrs. Morel shifted in her chair, an
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stroking with a rhythmic, jerked mo
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"No, mother--I really DON'T love he
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"Show me!" He would at that moment
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He pressed his face upon the pillow
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just awake from his Sunday nap, was
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"But I love to touch them," she rep
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He sat down against his will, resti
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digging up little clods of earth as
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"But I don't understand," she said
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And she was good to him. She did hi
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Miriam was indignant at anybody's f
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"And you won't think about it, and
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So he went as often, but he was usu
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There was between them now always a
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"Yes," he said; "I am glad." She sa
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Miriam dared not propose anything f
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all the songs his friend could teac
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Clara and her for a walk. They set
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It went up the bank in little leaps
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Clara did not answer, but strode on
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"I don't believe they do." "I don't
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He gathered up the flowers he had s
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"Ah!" she exclaimed. "So she is!" H
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They sat together in the cathedral.
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of angry way." Mrs. Morel considere
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and was splendid in uniform. Annie
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"I shall be with you just the same.
Page 381 and 382: would he go? The army had not reall
Page 383 and 384: She was afraid that her hair, speci
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Page 387 and 388: And again he laughed, in a way that
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Page 399 and 400: "But I want you to be happy," she s
Page 401 and 402: lay on her left, whilst in front of
Page 403 and 404: "Ay, well, and I can remember when
Page 405 and 406: were coming very wide open. Wasn't
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Page 409 and 410: "Then why ask me about it?" "Becaus
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Page 416 and 417: "Yes, you want to know, don't you?"
Page 418 and 419: "You have stayed to dinner!" he exc
Page 420 and 421: She shivered. She loathed the town.
Page 422 and 423: "It's my birthday, and they've boug
Page 424 and 425: Suddenly they came to a halt on top
Page 427 and 428: "Did you leave him out of count all
Page 429 and 430: "What, pray?" "Making him feel as i
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Page 435 and 436: "I think so," she answered.
Page 437 and 438: "Kiss me," she whispered. He shut h
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Page 444 and 445: only to him then a woman. She was a
Page 446 and 447: "Let us stay here awhile," he said.
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Page 450 and 451: And he could not do it often, and t
Page 452 and 453: So he gave the account of himself.
Page 454 and 455: of flowers. They flagged all loose,
Page 456 and 457: Miriam met him at the lane-end. She
Page 458 and 459: There was in it some truth that, in
Page 460 and 461: had flattered him, and despised him
Page 462 and 463: She was sure of herself. Only, this
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Page 466 and 467: to his mother. "Mother," he said, "
Page 468 and 469: He stood in front of her, his eyes
Page 470 and 471: She followed him. He took her hand
Page 472 and 473: "You will meet me at the Fountain a
Page 474 and 475: His mouth the same was just going t
Page 476 and 477: "And I am thirty," she said. "I kno
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She sat down, panting, on the tusso
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sure I feel harmless--so--if it mak
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"Yes; I've been down Clifton Grove
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"Yes!--yes!--if you'd anything abou
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"Were you late home?" she asked. At
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that's why she stayed with him. Aft
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"I may call in as I go to chapel,"
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"Do you think so?" he answered. "Yo
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front room, with its old piano, its
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her in her talk. There was a lot of
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they became aware of Miriam. There
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of speaking so about Miriam. After
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"I tell you it's only words that go
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a match." He secretly hoped it was
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"She caught the train then?" she sa
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In a maze, he wandered out for a dr
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It was a little dish of chip potato
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on the hearthrug, holding her fork.
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stool to stand on." "That's the wor
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"Fifteen two, fifteen four, fifteen
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folded his suit, and sat on the bed
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At length, unable to stand so any m
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"It won't make it no earlier. Here,
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"You'll do as you like," said Mrs.
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"Why, what about th' theatre?" aske
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the man's forehead, he thought he l
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"I might give you a turn or two," s
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"About Baxter." "There's nothing to
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"'The man in righteousness arrayed,
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just now." Dawes knew from his tone
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Mr. Jordan started, marched up to t
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"Have you ever considered where it
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The feeling that things were going
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she asked. "Go somewhere in a prett
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and wondering, like Adam and Eve wh
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"And what is love?" she asked. "Has
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They had a warm hollow in the sandh
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"What is she, after all?" he said t
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short holiday?" "I don't know. Love
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were separate. Where he wanted to g
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"You begin to value Baxter now you'
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with chagrin. "It's something; and
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"Good-evening!" Morel answered, not
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Dawes's struggles suddenly renewed
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He felt he could not bear it. His m
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their teeth, the young men swung th
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"Pains?" "Yes; but not more than I'
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"Mrs. Morel never told Dr. Jameson
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"Of course," said Mrs. Morel. Paul
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the charge of Minnie. Walter Morel
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"Well, I'll write plain." It was no
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"No; it would be silly. And take ca
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"Has he?" she answered wearily. The
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"but it's nice to be in my own home
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in a naked extremity of hate, and i
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He lay staring across at the wall o
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more information. She went about sh
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him tired. He was not sorry when he
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It all seemed unreal, he could not
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as if paralysed, unable to go any f
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"There are different ways of dying.
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"It's not been much of a week-end,"
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only that place to come to. He was
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she kissed him and kissed him. He s
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"Go and sit with her while we have
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"What are you doing?" said Annie. "
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"Ay," said the mother--"try." They
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He nodded. They sat down again help
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He drew up the blind and got dresse
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There was a good deal to do, letter
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They would not let anybody come to
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Down below she saw a dark corner of
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But Dawes, with rather shaky hand,
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"And I don't see," said Paul, "why
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The three stood at a loss. She kept
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"Why don't I?" She looked again out
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to her; he dared not give it her. S
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to him. He let go the curtain, turn
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He was most himself when he was alo
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Then, quite mechanically and more d
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"I mustn't," he said; and, turning
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ing you back." "Very well," she rep
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"I say--that sounds all right for y
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"And you have broken off with Clara
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She was aware of his dark-clothed,
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"I'll come along with you," he answ
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