Standouts - The Beat Within
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<strong>The</strong><strong>Beat</strong><strong>Within</strong>.org<br />
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Pieces of the week<br />
My Nephew, Myshawn<br />
My nephew, Myshawn, died in his sleep from infant sudden death,<br />
when he was only five months old. He was my sister, Myeika’s, only<br />
child.<br />
When I was out with my nephew, I was around him, holding<br />
him, feeding him, changing his diapers, just making him smile, and<br />
letting him hear music that I listen to. When he cried, I would give<br />
him his pacifier or give him a bottle, or let my sis hold him. I would<br />
smile at him, rub his belly, tickle him to make him laugh.<br />
I would take him in the front of my house, so he could see the<br />
girls. <strong>The</strong>y would be on him tough. He would also sit on my lap while<br />
I’m playing “Call of Duty” or “Madden.” When I would be around and<br />
he was crying, I would pick him up and he would be real chill, and<br />
nibble on his fingers, and make baby sounds.<br />
His dad went to jail when he was three months. His dad loved<br />
him. We would sit around, watch TV, listen to music, just the three<br />
of us.<br />
He was five months when I went to jail. During the whole day,<br />
he was not eating anything, and when he went to sleep at two PM,<br />
he had trouble breathing. At eleven PM, he died.<br />
My sister was a wreck. I was also furious, because I wasn’t<br />
there to support her. I never saw him again, and my PO didn’t let me<br />
go to his funeral.<br />
-Money Vern, San Francisco<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: We’re so sorry about your baby nephew’s passing. You<br />
were a tender, loving uncle. Don’t you need to be out, home with your<br />
family, even if it means you can’t do whatever brings you into juvy any<br />
more? It’s time.<br />
What’s Goin’ On?<br />
What’s goin’ on in the streets besides violence?<br />
You step outside the house and all you hear is sirens.<br />
You can’t go to the park and just have fun, ‘cause always<br />
violence involving a gun.<br />
What’s goin’ on, there’s never any peace. Not when you’re<br />
here or in the east.<br />
-Jeremi, Alameda<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Great piece! What can we all do to help obtain more<br />
peace in our communities?<br />
Whatever It Takes<br />
When I’m in jail I feel like a caged animal, even though I made the<br />
decision to get myself locked up behind a blue door that I know I<br />
can’t come out when I feel like it. I’ve been stressing very much for<br />
myself and family because I know that my family are not doing good<br />
when I’m in here, and I can’t help or talk to them when they are<br />
stressing. It sometimes makes me want to cry because I’m headed<br />
for a downfall. Even though I try to do my best to do right, to show<br />
people I’m not as bad as I act when I’m around my friends or family.<br />
When I get home I’m going to do my best to stay in school and<br />
get my high school diploma, and get a good job, because I want to<br />
make something of myself. Some of my family members say I’m a<br />
messup and I’ll always disgrace them and myself because all I do<br />
is smoke weed and hang out and go to jail and I never learn from<br />
my mistakes. I play football for a Catholic High School, and could<br />
make it to college, but I make bad choices. I wonder if I can do it.<br />
Sometimes my girlfriend says she knows I’m good and can make<br />
a good life in real estate, which is mainly my dream, and I will do<br />
whatever it takes to accomplish my dreams.<br />
-Devian, Alameda<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Of course you can do it! You have talent and intelligence,<br />
and it shows from your writing that you’ve thought long and hard<br />
about what it is that gets you in trouble. But making changes is hard<br />
to do alone. Do you have positive peers, and coaches, teachers, or<br />
family members you respect who can support you, and who believe<br />
that you can do well if you want to? Most importantly, do you believe<br />
in yourself?<br />
Pieces of the Week<br />
Volume 17.01/02<br />
<strong>The</strong> Challenges in Today’s World<br />
Man, as I sit up in a cell thinking of all the things I’ve been through<br />
in my life, from both good and bad, it’s not even a joke. I’m seventeen<br />
years old, about to be eighteen as I sit here and realize the trial<br />
and tribulations of what I could be facing in my life is crazy. <strong>The</strong><br />
pain and suffering I’m putting my family through because of the bad<br />
decision I’ve made.<br />
I have been coming to this juvenile detention facility since I<br />
was thirteen years old. I’ve been in your shoes and I know how it<br />
feels to get to missing your family. I know how it feels not to be<br />
called up for mail. I know how it feels not get a visit, and to sit in<br />
your room with nothing to do, but to think about things that you<br />
never thought you’d catch yourself thinking of. I know how it feels<br />
to only take a three to five minute shower, and to wear somebody<br />
else’s clothes. To be told what to do from people that you don’t even<br />
know and people that most likely don’t care for you, or even want to<br />
try to help you or guide you down the right track. I know how it feels<br />
and I understand.<br />
Think about all that for just one second.<br />
Do you even want to be going through this (criminal justice)<br />
system? I can tell you all now, that none of you want to be going<br />
through these situations, and I already know it’s a lot of challenges<br />
you face out in society. But in order to change, you got to switch up<br />
your style of living, including the friends you hang with, and start<br />
accepting responsibility in your life.<br />
Stop doing things the easy way, just take your place as a young<br />
man and women, instead of moving too fast for things that’s really<br />
worthless in your life. Stop presenting yourself with a bad image,<br />
because that could only get you so far selling drugs, doing dope,<br />
prostituting, and robbing people, is only going to come down to<br />
death or life behind bars. You can only get so many chances and<br />
sometime none at all.<br />
That’s really the sad part to see young people waste their lives<br />
for the dumb things. Don’t let it get too late to finally open up your<br />
eyes to realize the open opportunities that you have of getting an<br />
education. Best believe I understand as a young teen, school is not<br />
your motivation, and you rather be doing other things, but stop<br />
while you can. Take the advantage to get all that you can get in the<br />
line of success. Make it for yourself and make your family proud<br />
of you. Don’t ever think you can’t amount to becoming somebody<br />
because of your past.<br />
Remember this, no matter how hard things may get, never<br />
give up until you make it to the top. Don’t let the thing you been<br />
through keep you from standing strong. Let all the things you’ve<br />
been through make you smarter and wiser in life, as a young lady,<br />
and young man. I’m not saying anybody changes within a day, never<br />
that, it takes time.<br />
I hope everything I’ve said here will hopefully give you a second<br />
look at life and you live life for what it is worth. Stop living in this<br />
big lie, and start living in the truth of reality. Stay with a positive<br />
attitude and strive for your dreams and goals in your life. Stay<br />
dedicated, motivated, and determined to be successful in life, don’t<br />
let being a criminal mess that up for you, because there is so much<br />
in life than that.<br />
Thank you for listening (reading), keep standing tall, always<br />
with your head up<br />
-Baby James, Solano<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: You deliver an awesome read! We know you are a<br />
teacher at heart, and your words in this piece speak volumes. We hope<br />
<strong>Beat</strong> readers will find your words the motivation we find them to be.<br />
I play football for a<br />
Catholic High School, and<br />
could make it to college,<br />
but I make bad choices.