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The BEat Beat Without
Volume 17.01/02
I’m Not The One You Left Behind
I’m not the one you left behind
Now I can see like they say love is blind
I am not the one that loved you so
But I’m the one who let you go
I’m not the one who used to rank
Now I’m the one with a shank
I’m not the one who believed your lies
But I’m the one that’s crying
I’m not the one you put on cloud-nine
Now I’m the one getting blown and high
I’m not the one that you made dream
But I’m the one who does dirty work but keeps my hands
clean
I’m not the one who was true to you
Now I’m the one who’s over you
I’m not the one who was true to you
Now I’m the one who’s over you
I’m not the one you used to play or the one that begged you
to stay
But I’m the one who didn’t give a shhh what you say
I’m not the one you used to kiss
Now I’ll be the one you’re gonna miss
I’m not the one you made smile
Bit I’m the one with the classy style
I’m not the one that was missin’ you
Now I’m the one with something new
I’m not the one that was deep in love
But I’m the one who puts on the gloves
I’m not the one that you made believe
Now I’m the one they all retrieve
I’m not the one you dedicated songs to
But I’m the one who doesn’t want you
I’m not the one you stole away
Now I’m the one who runs away
I’m not the one that you broke
But I’m the one that daily tokes
I’m not the one you talked shhh about
Now I’m the one you made shed tears
But I’m the one that puts it down and makes it clear
I’m not the one you deny
Now I’m the one with open eyes
I’m not the one beggin’ you to come back
But now loneliness is what I lack
I’m not the one with the broken heart
But I’m the one slangin’ at the mini-park
Your party’s finished and mine crackin’ and hasn’t even began
to start
I’m not the one who wrote all these letters, now,
I’m that down ass jina and I’m getting letters
I’m not the girl waiting for your call
But I’m the one your homeboys missin in and out the halls
I’m not the one who wants you back
Now I’m the one who makes all the parties crack
I got a pound and all you got is a little sack,
It ain’t my bad, all your jinas belong on the track,
do you even wonder where there mouths have been, when
you ‘bout to mack?
I’m not the one you need to tell your stories,
But I’m the one that parties night and morning
I’m not the one who used to laugh at your snoring
Now I’m the one who’s moved on and thinks you’re boring
I’m not the one that you met with low-self-esteem
But I’m all dolled up looking fresh and clean
But most of all I’m not the one that will be waitin’
Now I’m the one paper makin’, and lives I’m taken
I’m not the one begging I’m the one bangin’
No time for you, I’m just sayin’.
Maria
We don’t know a lot about Maria, but we do know she has plenty
to share, and she is truly taking advantage of her gifts as a writer/
poet. The following selection speaks volumes as to what she is going
through. We do hope she is feeling a bit better now, as time heals
the wounds of love lost. We assume that Maria is a participant in our
writing workshops in the San Bernardino County Juvenile Hall, in San
Bernardino, CA
It Was Just My Imagination
Me and you together you promised always and forever
You say I’m your babygirl and we belong together
You say that you’ll leave me never and I bring sunshine
despite the weather.
You whisper in my ear “baby I’m down for whatever,”
I’m in your arms no need to say good night,
my life is perfection as you hold me tight.
My world was darkness but you brought light,
always let me know everything gonna be all right.
You give me visions of a happy life no knives or strife,
you say one day you gonna make me your wife.
You call me everyday and make my pain go away,
when you tease me I say “boy don’t play”
You take care of me and I take care of you,
God knows all the shhh we been through.
You make me laugh,
on all the rainy days and somehow all the pain just fades away,
sing me songs and tell me jokes got me writing Loca loves Lil
Tokes.
Finally all my dreams come true just as long as I belong to
you.
God bless you, you make me feel brand new.
How’s I get so lucky, I don’t even got a clue.
I’m so happy ‘cause you’re all mine can’t explain it.
It’s like you gotta hold on my mind and baby I’m forever down
to ride,
You truly are one of a kind, can’t explain the feelings you give
me inside,
I’m your down lady that’ll always be by your side.
We’ll take on the world, babe, together with pride.
When I’m with you I’m so happy my smile I just can’t hide.
When I look into your eyes I see the sunshine,
I feel in love what a great surprise.
You tell me “I wish you could see what I see, you”
Everything I do is ‘cause I love you
We’re having a baby, Baby. Thank you Baby,
we’re gonna make a life together and stop messin’ up and go
through it together, even when times get rough.
Wait, where’d you go, oh you left me?
Broke my heart and misled me?
You lied about marriage, I had a miscarriage?
You were cheating and lying?
I overdosed and you left me crying?
You didn’t answer my calls or my letters?
You moved on to jinas far better?
You talk shhh about me and make me cry got me feeling like I
wanna die?
Gettin me pregnant you deny. You laughed when you heard I
cried?
You tell all your new girls the things you told me,
like that you “finally realize why they say the best things in
life are free”
You never loved me you were playing me?
Those things you did and said didn’t mean anything?
It was just my imagination running away with me.