Standouts - The Beat Within
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Late Night Tale<br />
A time that I made my mom very angry would be the day I came home<br />
very late. It was around 4:30 in the morning. I was very drunk and<br />
high and I also had a lot of hickies on my neck from my boyfriend.<br />
She was so pissed at me that she couldn’t even believe that<br />
I would come home like that. She couldn’t even look at me. I felt<br />
like I disrespected her in many ways! She took my phone away and<br />
didn’t let me go out for two weeks. I couldn’t use the computer. My<br />
boyfriend couldn’t come over anymore.<br />
It took my mom about a month to talk to me again! I felt really<br />
mad at myself for letting this happen. Ever since that day I have<br />
never disrespected my mom in that way.<br />
-Lexi<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: We’re glad to hear that the relationship with your mom<br />
has been repaired. No parent wants his or her child coming home late<br />
and intoxicated, so hopefully this situation shows you how acting a<br />
certain way can cause emotional stress for your mom.<br />
My Bad Decision<br />
<strong>The</strong> time I made my parents the most angry was when I came home<br />
high off of a pill my friend gave me. I took the pill one Friday at<br />
school and after school my mom picked me up. She couldn’t tell I<br />
was high at first, but later on in the evening she finally realized. She<br />
was so upset with me even though she knew I smoked she had never<br />
seen me that messed up before. I couldn’t even talk right.<br />
She yelled at me and told me I was grounded till the end of the<br />
month. She didn’t hit me, but she was mad because she thought it<br />
was a phase that was over with. I guess she kind of blamed herself<br />
a little bit because she did it when she was my age and she doesn’t<br />
want me to follow in her footsteps.<br />
I guess when I saw how upset, hurt, frustrated and sad she was<br />
it made me think, and I know I could of done a lot of things different<br />
that day, like not taking that pill. I told her what happened and told<br />
her I still smoked and was trying to stop.<br />
Now all because that one bad decision, I’m here in juvenile hall.<br />
Even though my mom has forgiven me I don’t know when I’ll forgive<br />
myself.<br />
-Jenaye<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Sometimes it takes a bad high to make us realize the<br />
negative effects of harder drugs. Your mom’s anger arose from a fear<br />
that you could do long-term damage to your body and mind by taking<br />
a little, random pill. It’s good to hear you’ve learned from this situation<br />
– just avoid those “friends” that experiment with drugs.<br />
Thinking<br />
Time in juvenile hall goes by so slow, but to keep myself busy, I<br />
usually just pick up a book. I hate thinking in here. <strong>The</strong>re’s nothing<br />
good to think about. I hate time in here, but at the end of the day, it<br />
seems like it went by fast. So I get ready for the next day and the day<br />
after until my time is up.<br />
-Author<br />
From the <strong>Beat</strong>: We are glad that you have chosen to try to keep busy.<br />
You could also use this as a time to do a lot of personal reflecting. You<br />
can really grow as a person if you think about where you want to be in<br />
the future and how you can change things for the better.<br />
Favorite Holiday Dish<br />
I like turkey with gravy on top along with dressing. I also like baked<br />
ham as a holiday dish. For dessert, I enjoy apple pie with some ice<br />
cream. <strong>The</strong> holiday appetizers I like are crackers and cheese with<br />
cured meat. I like to drink strong black tea with a cool temperature<br />
while having these foods. Sometimes, I’ll drink soda, like Pepsi<br />
instead of tea.<br />
-Shaniqa<br />
From the <strong>Beat</strong>: <strong>The</strong>se are simple food items that can remind us of home.<br />
We hope that you can have these foods once you get out. We are sure<br />
you will fully enjoy them.<br />
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Sticking up to my Dad<br />
<strong>The</strong> bravest thing I have ever done was stick up to my dad. I<br />
remember a time when I was on the run and I came home to my dad.<br />
He didn’t talk to me at all. He made me some food and I ate it fast<br />
because I was hungry and I was doped out. <strong>The</strong>n, my dad told me I<br />
was sick. I got mad and told him to shut up.<br />
That was my brave decision, but it didn’t last long. My dad got<br />
mad and got up. He went to get a Pepsi and a hard liquor bottle. He<br />
pushed my stomach with the bottle and poured the Pepsi all over<br />
me. I have never been brave enough to talk back to my dad ever since<br />
that day.<br />
Stay drug free and don’t drink. It’s not worth it.<br />
-April<br />
From the <strong>Beat</strong>: We are sorry that you had to face that treatment. Think<br />
about why left home and why you aren’t on good terms with your<br />
father. Maybe you can think about the person you don’t want to be<br />
and how you can become a better person.<br />
Waiting to be Sentenced<br />
Being locked in juvenile hall isn’t anything hard. <strong>The</strong> worst time for<br />
me is waiting to see how long the judge is going to give me. After<br />
that, it is a lot easier for me. It takes a lot of stress off my mind, and<br />
I count down my days. My time might go by slowly, but it’s all right. I<br />
know my release date. Being in here is not what I want, but its kind<br />
of what I asked for.<br />
-Lindsay<br />
From the <strong>Beat</strong>: We are sorry to hear about all the stress. If this were<br />
something you “asked for”, what would you ask for differently? Learn<br />
from these times and ask for something that is better for you.<br />
Locked Up<br />
I’m locked up for the holidays<br />
And there is no way out<br />
I’m all alone in my cell<br />
But there’s no time to pout<br />
Christmas is coming and so is New Years<br />
I wonder what my family is thinking about<br />
I have no freedom<br />
I’m getting no gifts<br />
I want to be home and that’s my only wish<br />
But I’m in juvenile hall and<br />
It’s not what I want.<br />
-Lindsay<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Thanks for the straight talkin’ poetry – unfortunately,<br />
we don’t always get what we want for Christmas, but sometimes it’s<br />
because of our own actions. How will you change in 2012 to ensure<br />
that you will be home for next year’s holiday?<br />
Support from Mom<br />
<strong>The</strong> time I got my mom mad. When I started to run away she was<br />
mad. But all she wanted was for me to be home and safe. She was<br />
still mad at me for about a week and then stopped because she<br />
missed me so much.<br />
A time when I had a bad high was not too long ago. I was<br />
smoking and couldn’t stop so I just kept on smoking till there was<br />
no more. A couple minutes later I started feeling sick and I started<br />
to throw up. It lasted all night.<br />
If I had the chance to thank someone in sixty seconds I would<br />
thank my mom. She has really been there for me when I messed up,<br />
and even though I know I messed up, she was always by my side. So<br />
I would tell my mom thank you for everything in life, but I am a big<br />
girl. I know what’s right and wrong. I can take care of myself now. I<br />
got it.<br />
-Celeste<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Your mother appears to be very patient and<br />
compassionate. How will you express your gratitude toward her once<br />
you return home?