Standouts - The Beat Within
Standouts - The Beat Within
Standouts - The Beat Within
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<strong>Standouts</strong><br />
<strong>Standouts</strong> Volume 17.01/02<br />
Solano County<br />
<strong>The</strong> Safe Place<br />
<strong>The</strong> safest place to be to me is in heaven cause that’s the only place<br />
where someone won’t try to hurt you. <strong>The</strong>re is no guns or weapons.<br />
Anything can happen here on planet Earth.<br />
-J<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: You’re right, anything can happen here, which is scary.<br />
But is there any way to make life less dangerous before you get to<br />
heaven? It would be a shame to waste this life waiting to get there.<br />
It Won’t Go Away<br />
I have a memory of my cousin getting shot right in front of me and it<br />
seems like it won’t leave my mind no matter how hard I try to forget<br />
it. It just won’t disappear.<br />
-J<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: That’s an awful memory to have stuck in your head.<br />
Have you ever talked to someone about it? Or written about it? It<br />
might help you sort out your feelings.<br />
A New Year -2012<br />
My new year’s resolution is to take care of my son and be with my<br />
family. To do that I will like to get a job, but there are a lot of things<br />
that I like to do. I would like to take care of my son, and I know I<br />
can’t do that from in here.<br />
This is a new year and I would truly like to start over. To do that, I<br />
will have to put all the things I have done into the past.<br />
Something I am going to do this year is finish high school, and<br />
really take care of my lil man. I know with me being in here I can’t<br />
help take care of my boy.<br />
I have one more resolution and that is to study to be a<br />
businessman here, I am going to go to school and finish high school<br />
so I can study to do that.. I know if you want to be a businessman<br />
you have to go to school and work hard and I’m prepared to do that.<br />
I know if I can work hard, I can do this.<br />
A friend once told me, if you know what you want then you can<br />
go get it. This is my new-year resolution.<br />
To end this, I would like to say that I would really like to take<br />
care of my son.<br />
I have one more resolution, and that is to never come back<br />
here. I know that I said this before, but now that I have a son, and<br />
I’m in here, and I can’t support my son. I know that I have done a lot<br />
of things in my life, but now that I have a son, and it is a new year. I<br />
have a son to support that’s why you will never see me in a jumpsuit<br />
again!<br />
-Nicholas<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Good read. Thank you for telling <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong> your truths,<br />
and we know many readers respect your words, to be the best dad for<br />
your son. You can do this, and much more. We support you in getting<br />
that education, that job, and being a real father to your baby boy.<br />
Safe Place<br />
What’s good <strong>Beat</strong>? A safe place for me is being where I am. “Locked<br />
up” sounds light weight sick, but when I’m on the streets I don’t<br />
listen to the PO or moms. And I’m always out there grindin’, you<br />
feel me!<br />
And when I’m on the streets doin’ dirt the only thing I think and<br />
care about is my money and my whip. It’s just something that won’t<br />
go away! And I’ve been down for a minute, but I still got the same<br />
mentality.<br />
I’m about to be a father in three months and I’m goin’ to miss<br />
my son coming into this world. So now I’m trying to grind on getting<br />
my GED so I can be there for him and my baby’s mama when I get out<br />
and not have to hit licks and worry about the boys hittin’ me up.<br />
-Young Guttah<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: It seems like you are beginning to realize that you can’t<br />
support your son on doin’ dirt—you need a real job and you need to be<br />
a part of his life so that he can grow up to be successful and healthy.<br />
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New Years Resolutions<br />
My new year’s resolutions are to stay focused on school so I can<br />
better my education. Because with education you can do whatever it<br />
is in the world you want. And to pretty much make my grandparents<br />
happy. My other new year’s resolution is to get back into football<br />
because my dream is to be in the NFL<br />
-Nathan<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: What do you plan to do with your education? What do<br />
you want to study or what to you want to be when you grow up?<br />
Bad Decisions<br />
<strong>The</strong>re was one of the worst decisions I have ever made. I was<br />
drinking at the cemetery, which was not smart. But it was dark. Me<br />
and my friends needed a place to hang out, too many cops out. So<br />
we are at the graveyard and it’s like two in the morning. We have a<br />
bottle of Captain Morgan and some cherry coke. <strong>The</strong>n we were being<br />
too noisy. <strong>The</strong>n the cops show up.<br />
I notice as I am wanting to leave the cops show up and all you<br />
hear and see. ‘Cause all we are seeing are flashlights. Two coming<br />
from behind us and two coming from in front of us. And this is what<br />
we hear is “nobody move.” Vacaville police. And everybody dips one<br />
group goes one way. I go through the front gates past the police cars<br />
and I was gone.<br />
<strong>The</strong> only person who got caught was my friend Kimmy, she<br />
went to jail. But that was a very bad decision to make. If I could take<br />
it back I would. Never do that again.<br />
-Dope<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: It sounds like you got away without any trouble. What<br />
was the bad decision, drinking in the cemetery? Why did you guys<br />
choose the cemetery to drink? Isn’t it a little creepy in there?<br />
<strong>The</strong> Drink<br />
My new year’s resolution is to slow down on my drinking. It’s like<br />
every time drink, I get into some kind of trouble. I don’t get locked<br />
up every time, but I get in trouble. This last time I drank I blacked<br />
out and only remember two things. I just woke up in the morning<br />
and was heckka mad. I don’t have a clue how long I’ll be in here.<br />
-Go Go Gadget Go<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: It might help you relax on the drinking if you explore<br />
why you drink so much in the first place. When you drink, are you<br />
being social, are you upset etc?<br />
Saved<br />
What it means to be saved is to find the Lord. Listen to the word<br />
and let it help you through tough times. Being saved helped me<br />
get through the times when I was in doubt. I can give a lot of the<br />
responsibilities to me getting saved to the staff. It helps you when<br />
you are in a time of need.<br />
-Anonymous<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: What were you in doubt about? How did the staff<br />
support you in finding a better path?<br />
How Does It Feel?<br />
Do you know how it feels to be in jail<br />
for something you didn’t do?<br />
Do you know how it feels to be away from family?<br />
Do you know how it feels to be in here,<br />
for your birthday and Christmas?<br />
Do you know how it feels to be in here,<br />
when family is dying and going to jail?<br />
It feels like hell.<br />
-<strong>The</strong> Don<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: We can only imagine how it truly feels for you. We<br />
hope that this is the year, the truth will set you free, and you can<br />
reunite with your family.