Standouts - The Beat Within
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<strong>The</strong><strong>Beat</strong><strong>Within</strong>.org<br />
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If You Don’t Think About It,<br />
It Will Go Faster<br />
When you are in Juvenile Hall, time can feel slow as hell, especially<br />
when you know how long you have. It seems like when you don’t<br />
have a clue when you’re getting out, your time goes by faster.<br />
When time passes by slowly, there isn’t much to do, but do a<br />
good program so you can be out of your room with the group. If you<br />
don’t think about time, it will go by faster. I hate when time goes by<br />
fast on the outs, but in here I want it to go by fast.<br />
-Zach<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Good insights, Zach! It left us wanting to hear more<br />
of your thoughts on time and how it works. For example, why do you<br />
hate when time goes by fast on the outs? What else is different about<br />
how you relate to the world out there versus when you’re inside?<br />
Too High!<br />
One day when I got a very bad high was on a very hot summer day. It<br />
was me and my cousins and we decide to smoke a bela (two blunts<br />
put together). Also, by the way, my cousin had some boe and he put<br />
it on the bela. So, we finished smoking and I was high, but I was<br />
feeling real bad.<br />
I had cottonmouth and we were in the park so we didn’t have<br />
no kind of drink. I started sweating a lot. I felt like my heart was<br />
going to stop. I think it was because the heat and because I didn’t<br />
have anything to drink. I learned a lesson: to never smoke on a hot<br />
summer day. If I do, I should have something to drink!<br />
-Lil Rigo<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: At least you learned something from your experience.<br />
Tired Of <strong>The</strong> Game<br />
I really love money.<br />
Sometimes I’m tired of the game.<br />
Waking up in jail.<br />
So much head aches and pain.<br />
Wishing I could turn my life around.<br />
It’s just the same.<br />
But I’m too deep in the game,<br />
Thinking about what I’m goin’ to change.<br />
Like I said, I love this money.<br />
Man, I ain’t ever goin’ to change.<br />
Keep gettin’ kicked out of school.<br />
Mom said I ain’t goin’ to graduate.<br />
So I gotta get this dough to bake<br />
Me a whole cake.<br />
I’m messin’ with a lot of ninjas.<br />
Yeah, that stuff is dumb.<br />
Yeah, I play with guns.<br />
But it really ain’t for fun.<br />
It’s for suckers who try to test me.<br />
And gotta fill this whole drum.<br />
-Da<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Is money really more important than your freedom or<br />
your safety? Really? Can’t you still graduate? It might take some time.<br />
But, again, it’s your freedom and your life on the line. Wouldn’t it be<br />
worth it?<br />
<strong>Standouts</strong> Alameda County Volume 17.01/02<br />
Leaving Here<br />
What’s good with the <strong>Beat</strong> readers/ This yo’ girl babygirl Cadi/<br />
Destiny/Caridad<br />
I’m leaving either at the end of this week or next Monday. I’m<br />
so ready to get out. Man, this is my last piece so I’m going to try and<br />
top all my other pieces, see how I’ve grown. Here goes nothing:<br />
I won’t miss the drama<br />
I won’t miss the stupidity<br />
I won’t miss the anger<br />
I won’t miss the hurt<br />
I won’t miss the locked doors<br />
But I will miss the lessons learned<br />
I will miss the protection<br />
I will miss my sense of peace<br />
Scared I’ll end up being his prostitute<br />
Wondering if the street will still have that pull<br />
Trying with all my soul to stay on that narrow road,<br />
‘Cause the wide one leads to destruction and death<br />
I’m ready to say goodbye<br />
Because that fifteen year old was loving life<br />
With not a care in the world.<br />
-Caridad<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: We hope the very best for you, Caridad. You have been<br />
a wonderful writer, leader, and teacher during your time with <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>,<br />
and we hope the next time someone tries to use you that you remember<br />
how wonderful and valuable you are as a person. Peace!<br />
Ten Years Ten Kids!<br />
In ten years I see myself playing football and having ten kids. And<br />
with a big house and living with all my family. Bad things could stop<br />
me. Like, still I don’t do drugs but drugs and not listening to yo’<br />
mom and not paying attention in class.<br />
-Otis<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: It’s good that you are able to identify some of the<br />
things that could get in the way of having the life and family you<br />
want. Now that you know some of the obstacles, do you have ideas on<br />
how to overcome them?<br />
My Second Christmas In Here<br />
What’s up <strong>Beat</strong>, it’s your boy up in the Max, doing time, playing<br />
cards with my people in the unit. Man <strong>Beat</strong> I don’t know how much<br />
time I got left in here. I don’t have no more court dates, my PO said I<br />
probably stay here until I’m eighteen years old, but I’m only sixteen<br />
and a half years old. This is going to be my second Christmas up in<br />
here. I miss my family a lot, and I’m positive that they miss me too.<br />
-Downer<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: That’s a long time to be locked up. When will you know<br />
for sure how long your sentence is going to be? What are some of the<br />
ways you maintain calm and manage the stress that comes with being<br />
unsure of your fate or future?<br />
Shawty Shawty Shawty<br />
Hey beautiful what you doin’<br />
I just happened to notice you when you walk by<br />
Damn girl you stay so damn fly<br />
I want to know you look like the apple in my damn eye<br />
I like yo’ swag, just throw it in the bag<br />
I’m fast like I’m a dress like a mac type<br />
Ump in the wipe<br />
Cruise to the crib and baby girl let me show you to live<br />
You be poppin’ you be droppin’ Shawty I been jockin’ you<br />
Shawty!<br />
-Shawn<br />
From <strong>The</strong> <strong>Beat</strong>: Thanks for standing up and performing this song in<br />
front of the whole unit, it takes real courage to do that. Can you think<br />
of other times in your life where you’ve shown courage and been proud<br />
of yourself?