Music is My Whole Life - World Federation of Music Therapy
Music is My Whole Life - World Federation of Music Therapy
Music is My Whole Life - World Federation of Music Therapy
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Horesh, T. (2006) “<strong>Music</strong> <strong>is</strong> <strong>My</strong> <strong>Whole</strong> <strong>Life</strong>” - The many meanings <strong>of</strong> music in addicts’ lives. <strong>Music</strong> <strong>Therapy</strong> Today<br />
(Online) Vol.VII (2) 291-317. available at http://musictherapyworld.net<br />
the euphoric recall <strong>of</strong> drug intoxication, reinforced through thousands <strong>of</strong><br />
repetitions, serve as powerful connections to the culture <strong>of</strong> addiction<br />
(White 1996).<br />
But music <strong>is</strong>n’t just a perceptual stimulus, something that reminds us <strong>of</strong><br />
something else. Most <strong>of</strong> my interviewees spoke <strong>of</strong> the importance <strong>of</strong> the<br />
texts <strong>of</strong> the music they l<strong>is</strong>tened to, and preferred songs sung in languages<br />
they understood.<br />
Dima:” I really pay attention to the words, they mean a lot to me.<br />
Maybe because I want my life to have some meaning, like the<br />
words <strong>of</strong> the songs do.”<br />
Identification with song texts could be seen as a means <strong>of</strong> amplifying<br />
unbearable emotions, as a mirror for those emotions, and a search for val-<br />
idation -which <strong>is</strong> usually lacking in the addict's social milieu.<br />
Sasha:” There’s th<strong>is</strong> song, where he sings about how hard everything<br />
<strong>is</strong>, how it hurts so much but nobody can talk about it. How<br />
he sits with h<strong>is</strong> friends all day but when he’s alone, at night, he<br />
cries h<strong>is</strong> heart out. How he’s sick and tired <strong>of</strong> it all. ….maybe I<br />
use the music to cry about my pain, maybe that’s how I get it<br />
out.”<br />
Addicts may choose to l<strong>is</strong>ten to certain kinds <strong>of</strong> music as an attempt at<br />
self-healing, as a quest for integration <strong>of</strong> past pains and experiences with<br />
their present life, or as a search for emotional and spiritual cathars<strong>is</strong>.<br />
They are used to turning to external factors to manipulate their mood and<br />
emotional state, using drugs and music, to th<strong>is</strong> purpose, interchangeably.<br />
The drugs they used blocked out almost all emotional activity, bringing<br />
them to a state <strong>of</strong>, what they call “living dead”. L<strong>is</strong>tening to music, they<br />
feel alive, connected to their past and present emotional repertoire.<br />
Nahum:”…now I’m depressed, and I want something that will<br />
deepen my depression, so I take th<strong>is</strong> thing from the outside that’s<br />
called music”<br />
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