Issue 27 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 27 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 27 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
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NATALIE KUSZ<br />
After Bedtime<br />
At night, with the coal stove stoked<br />
<strong>and</strong> banked to burn low, its tea kettle filled <strong>and</strong> moistening<br />
the air, my mother made the night rounds, visiting<br />
each bed in turn, replacing fallen blankets<br />
<strong>and</strong> pillows, pulling the thumbs from our mouths,<br />
bending in toward our faces<br />
to confirm that each <strong>of</strong> us breathed. Sometimes,<br />
now, in my daughter's dark room, when I cover<br />
her stray foot with the sheets, pick up<br />
the book <strong>and</strong> pen flashlight where she hid them, I know<br />
how our mother must have stood there, desiring<br />
to wake us again on a pretense—some question<br />
about school, a reminder to carry our lunch<br />
or field trip money—anything<br />
to lengthen the day by one more<br />
conversation, spoken at leisure<br />
with the TV <strong>of</strong>f, every err<strong>and</strong> complete, no bubbling dinner<br />
to distract her. She deliberated—I know it—<br />
then left us sleeping, but occasionally—<br />
if she touched <strong>and</strong> then left us<br />
<strong>and</strong> we faded awake for a moment—<br />
we could hear her slow footfalls retreating.<br />
Letter to David, My Father's Best Friend<br />
I am recalling the last homehaircut<br />
he extracted from me: the usual<br />
"I like your way, <strong>and</strong> its cheap," how the whiteblond<br />
arctic sun bore itself rapidly<br />
winter-ward overhead. His iron<br />
chair readied on the boardwalk, the plum vinyl<br />
hero's cape spread waiting in my h<strong>and</strong>s,<br />
he rested on the steps in half-descent, an apologetic<br />
wheeze to his speech. "Almost," he said,<br />
"but first some air," <strong>and</strong> my sister lowered<br />
the oxygen tube down the porchway, settling<br />
the soughing cannula in his nose. Finally<br />
two last stairs, a hunching stride, the chair pads<br />
hissed exhale underneath him. I made it<br />
quick: the shrouding plastic, the furrowing comb, the cautious<br />
humming clippers behind each ear. Shoulders,<br />
nape, he received the full trim, requesting by gesture<br />
the sprouted brows. Around us, <strong>of</strong>f the cape<br />
cut white petals slid earthward. David,<br />
they lay there still this summer, settled<br />
between the boardwalk planks, spilled over-edge<br />
on the gravel. You <strong>and</strong> I walked over them—remember—<br />
those matting curled husks, mementos more surely<br />
than the dead man's shirts we carried away. I<br />
left them—some misplaced<br />
fear <strong>of</strong> morbidity, perhaps, the styrene<br />
dashboard Madonnas I despise. Yet today<br />
your recorded voice speaks <strong>of</strong> snowfall, your first<br />
cold-weather check on Dad's house. My trustworthy friend<br />
I write to send thanks, to mention forgotten<br />
leaf rakes along the drive. And tomorrow<br />
if you travel peering past the house, stop<br />
in a minute: there by the porch steps, a low<br />
bank will have blown; skim it away, palmsful<br />
at a time, lift out an envelope's<br />
load <strong>of</strong> white hair, <strong>and</strong> preserve it<br />
among the garden seeds till I come.