Issue 27 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 27 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
Issue 27 - Columbia: A Journal of Literature and Art
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giant claw <strong>and</strong> the walls have shifted, jamming the windows tight.<br />
The window I got isn't big enough to make a large table, <strong>and</strong> MJ<br />
won't want to make just one end table. She already knows where<br />
they'll go in her apartment. I kick the brick chips at my feet, cuss,<br />
then swing the crowbar into the row <strong>of</strong>windows. Glass flies <strong>and</strong><br />
lead seams bend <strong>and</strong> break. If we can't have them, no one can. I<br />
circle the house, giving each window five sharp bashes with the<br />
crowbar. My skin is hot. My h<strong>and</strong>s tingle from the impact. I bark<br />
Shit! Fucker! Shit! with each swing, then run to the other house<br />
<strong>and</strong> begin breaking its windows, too.<br />
I am st<strong>and</strong>ing on the front porch when I see the police car<br />
coming, a spotlight sweeping over the demolished side <strong>of</strong> the<br />
street. I jump <strong>of</strong>f <strong>and</strong> run behind the first house. The spotlight<br />
flashes on my legs. I dive over the thick trunk <strong>of</strong> tree they've torn<br />
down, l<strong>and</strong> in a pile <strong>of</strong> branches. My h<strong>and</strong> scrapes against the<br />
trunk <strong>and</strong> I feel warm blood well up on my knuckles. The crowbar<br />
jabs my hip. I do not breathe, do not flinch. An ant crawls across<br />
my face. I listen to the blood pound in my ears, watch the clouds<br />
pass overhead, lit up by the city lights. I wait for the cops to find<br />
me stupidly frozen behind this tree trunk, but they never come. I<br />
count to three hundred, then poke my head up. I'm safe. I climb<br />
back over the fence, find the windowpane <strong>and</strong> head toward home.<br />
In an alleyway I stop under a lightpole <strong>and</strong> look the window<br />
over. It has been spray-painted almost solid red. One glass square is<br />
missing, two others are cracked. It's worthless. I tuck the window<br />
under my arm like a large book, turn left instead <strong>of</strong> right at the<br />
end <strong>of</strong> the alley. I walk to a nearby parking garage, carry the window<br />
to the top level, st<strong>and</strong> at the edge <strong>and</strong> hurl the thing into the street.<br />
It tumbles for two seconds, spinning slowly, like a giant nine <strong>of</strong><br />
diamonds flicked into the air, then l<strong>and</strong>s flat on the center stripe.<br />
A belly flop. A metallic clap. Glass scatters across both lanes. I think<br />
what torture it would be to walk through it barefoot. It would<br />
sting worse than my bleeding h<strong>and</strong>. The frame is a twisted thing.<br />
No one sees this but me. I do not go home until almost sunrise.<br />
Excessive Noise<br />
MJ slams the door to Johnson's room, storms down the hall,<br />
slams our front door as she leaves. They have been arguing for an<br />
hour. She wants to go with him to his brother's wedding. He<br />
wants to go alone. I know why: one <strong>of</strong> the bridesmaids is a highschool<br />
girlfriend he still sees when he visits his parents. I wait<br />
fifteen minutes. Johnson doesn't leave his room. I go outside <strong>and</strong><br />
walk down the block to the park bench where MJ is sitting. I sit<br />
down next to her. Trouble in paradise? I say. "He can be such an<br />
asshole," MJ says. "He says he's 'not ready' for me to meet his<br />
parents." She has not been crying. I love her for that. I can smell<br />
her sweat. I want to put my h<strong>and</strong>s on her face. You ought to live<br />
with him, I say. You think he's a jerk about this, you ought to go<br />
grocery shopping with him. He likes crunchy peanut butter, for<br />
Christ's sake. MJ laughs. She leans back. "You know, all he <strong>and</strong> I<br />
do is watch movies, eat out <strong>and</strong> fuck." She st<strong>and</strong>s up <strong>and</strong> brushes<br />
the seat <strong>of</strong> her pants. "I'm going back in. Coming?" I shake my<br />
head no <strong>and</strong> watch her walk back up the block. I sit <strong>and</strong> watch<br />
traffic go by, the sky go orange with sunset, <strong>and</strong> wonder what role<br />
it is that I have been assigned. I wonder if my face has started to<br />
lose its features, or if I am fading into invisibility. I head back to<br />
the apartment, climb the stairs to the third floor. At the door, I<br />
hear sounds that have become as familiar to me as the purr <strong>of</strong> my<br />
computer. Sounds I hear from down the hall almost every night.<br />
I open the door. A flash <strong>of</strong> Johnson leaning over MJ on the couch,<br />
<strong>of</strong> h<strong>and</strong>s moving under clothing, <strong>and</strong> I slam the door closed again.<br />
Murder<br />
I am driving home after the seafood trucker pays me <strong>and</strong> I<br />
stop at an ab<strong>and</strong>oned feed mill near some railroad tracks. I drive<br />
by it all the time. The building is boarded up <strong>and</strong> surrounded by<br />
weeds as tall as I am. Spray-painted graffiti covers most <strong>of</strong> the<br />
bricks. EVAN + JUDY COUGARS RULE JESUS SAVES I<br />
look through a gap in the boards. Inside, the building is empty,<br />
dusty <strong>and</strong> undisturbed. No one comes here. There are no other<br />
buildings for at least a half-mile. This is how it works: while<br />
Johnson is on his evening jog, I hit him with my car. I know just<br />
the stretch <strong>of</strong> highway. I come at him from the other direction,<br />
cross the center line <strong>and</strong> clip him with the front bumper. The look