Forest Path - Amaravati Buddhist Monastery
Forest Path - Amaravati Buddhist Monastery
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69<br />
Mindfulness with Mosquitoes<br />
Tan Sa¤¤amo<br />
I find it a challenge to be able to translate many of the Pàli words<br />
found in the Suttas into day-to-day experience. Sometimes even<br />
the most common words such as sati or saddhà can remain at<br />
best loosely defined concepts in our minds; how we personally<br />
experience these concepts in our minds is not clearly understood.<br />
Is it not worthwhile taking the time to investigate our use of<br />
these terms for ourselves? I have thought so, and at times have<br />
been surprised at what a little discursive thought can drudge up.<br />
When these terms are not clear I have noticed that doubt tends to<br />
infiltrate through this vagueness. By defining the terms more<br />
clearly and connecting them to our experience, not only do we<br />
patch up obscurities but we can identify the presence of the qualities<br />
these terms refer to and their nature to rise and fall. The<br />
following is an extract from my journal relating to an incident<br />
that has since redefined and clarified experientially what I take to<br />
be mindfulness in action.<br />
Today during our evening meeting at the outside meditation hall,<br />
clouds of bloodthirsty mosquitoes descended upon our vulnerable<br />
and defenceless Saïgha. Lately I have been struggling to understand<br />
how to work skilfully with unpleasant situations that inevitably<br />
crop up in life. This was a fortuitous occasion to explore the possibilities!<br />
A Dhamma talk was offered this evening. When it ended, I was<br />
feeling unusually content, with no real motivation to pursue a particular<br />
meditation object. Instead I was satisfied with watching the<br />
momentum of my thoughts naturally still and settle. Inspired by<br />
such a peaceful mind-state, I generously offered my exposed right<br />
arm and shoulder to the mosquitoes. The response was overwhelming,<br />
so much so that my arm started twitching involuntarily from the<br />
strain of hosting such a banquet. Frustration began to grow and the<br />
din in my mind that was telling me that nothing was going on and<br />
that everything was OK was not very convincing. Basically, I was<br />
being eaten alive. I didn’t want to admit, “This is unpleasant”. Instead,<br />
thoughts like, “If you just get concentrated, you won’t feel it”<br />
or “Develop compassion” arose in my mind.