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The effects of overdosing were diverse. Participants<br />

described how being in a semi lucid state made them feel<br />

(and most likely appear) confused, distressed, agitated or<br />

aggressive. Some described an intense and overpowering<br />

desire for sex, which occasionally resulted in injury to<br />

themselves or others, unwanted sex with undesired<br />

partners or inappropriate sexual behaviour forced on<br />

others.<br />

Short bouts of a loss of consciousness were very<br />

common but were perceived as relatively normal<br />

during sex with GHB/GBL. Some men described<br />

regaining consciousness only to find that they had lost<br />

considerable time, had lost control of their bowels or<br />

bladder, were in pain or vomiting or had been (or were in<br />

the process of being) penetrated without their consent.<br />

A few men <strong>report</strong>ed being robbed in sex on premises<br />

venues while unconscious and suggested that others<br />

may have over dosed them deliberately for this purpose.<br />

Some expressed concern as to their own, or others,<br />

vulnerability in this state.<br />

“ I would take G. I would always end up taking slightly<br />

too much and I end up having sex with someone I did<br />

not want to or there would be a couple of incidents<br />

where I would be on the verge of passing out and I<br />

would come round and realise I was having sex with<br />

someone without a condom [...] There have been a<br />

couple of times where I would freak out and be like,<br />

“shit what has happened, I need to sort this out”.<br />

[Aged 24, last tested HIV negative]<br />

”<br />

Three men <strong>report</strong>ed being the victim of non-consensual<br />

sex while under the influence of drugs, and several others<br />

<strong>report</strong>ed that their friends or acquaintances had similar<br />

experiences. In all cases this occurred when men had<br />

taken an accidental overdose of one or more drugs and<br />

they felt that other men had taken advantage of them in<br />

their vulnerable state. Non-consensual sex was <strong>report</strong>ed<br />

in a variety of settings, although one man recounted<br />

witnessing a particularly troubling incident at a private<br />

sex party.<br />

“ I went to a party and there was only one person there<br />

who was passive; everyone else was active. And it very<br />

much – I felt uncomfortable because the person who<br />

was passive was rolling around in bed, moaning and<br />

sweating, “Oh I’ve done too much G”, and he was in a<br />

real state. I didn’t feel comfortable having sex with him<br />

but I didn’t feel it would be consensual but everyone<br />

else had no problem scrabbling around on top of him.<br />

And he kept saying no. And I was like saying, “It sounds<br />

like he’s in pain.” But I just couldn’t join in, it didn’t feel<br />

right. ”<br />

[Aged 21, last tested HIV negative]<br />

Those men who had personally been the victim of nonconsensual<br />

sex were very hesitant to use the words ‘rape’<br />

or ‘sexual assault’ because of what they, and others, felt<br />

was a particularly blurry line regarding consent in the<br />

context of <strong>chemsex</strong>. None had <strong>report</strong>ed these as criminal<br />

incidents. Overdosing, particularly on GHB/GBL meant<br />

that men might drift in and out of consciousness or may<br />

cycle between pleasure and distress while having sex.<br />

“ If someone had had too much and their inhibitions<br />

are reduced and none of it is really consensual, but<br />

then none of it is against anyone’s will. I think really it<br />

goes with the situation, it goes with the territory [...]<br />

Some people are giving consent but I mean is it really<br />

consent when someone is literally on the verge of<br />

passing out? ”<br />

[Aged 24, last tested HIV negative]<br />

Men talked about hospitalisation or death related to<br />

GHB/GBL commonly arising in saunas and clubs. While<br />

some had experienced this directly, others described how<br />

it had happened to friends, or had read about it in the<br />

news. There were five men who had been hospitalised<br />

due to severe overdose and had found this experience<br />

very distressing. They described hospital staff as<br />

being censorious, as well as their own sense of shame,<br />

embarrassment and horror.<br />

‘Overdosing, particularly on GHB/GBL<br />

meant that men might drift in and out<br />

of consciousness or may cycle between<br />

pleasure and distress while having sex.’<br />

The Chemsex Study | 7. NEGATIVE EXPERIENCES AND HARMS ASSOCIATED WITH CHEMSEX 59

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