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The effects of overdosing were diverse. Participants<br />
described how being in a semi lucid state made them feel<br />
(and most likely appear) confused, distressed, agitated or<br />
aggressive. Some described an intense and overpowering<br />
desire for sex, which occasionally resulted in injury to<br />
themselves or others, unwanted sex with undesired<br />
partners or inappropriate sexual behaviour forced on<br />
others.<br />
Short bouts of a loss of consciousness were very<br />
common but were perceived as relatively normal<br />
during sex with GHB/GBL. Some men described<br />
regaining consciousness only to find that they had lost<br />
considerable time, had lost control of their bowels or<br />
bladder, were in pain or vomiting or had been (or were in<br />
the process of being) penetrated without their consent.<br />
A few men <strong>report</strong>ed being robbed in sex on premises<br />
venues while unconscious and suggested that others<br />
may have over dosed them deliberately for this purpose.<br />
Some expressed concern as to their own, or others,<br />
vulnerability in this state.<br />
“ I would take G. I would always end up taking slightly<br />
too much and I end up having sex with someone I did<br />
not want to or there would be a couple of incidents<br />
where I would be on the verge of passing out and I<br />
would come round and realise I was having sex with<br />
someone without a condom [...] There have been a<br />
couple of times where I would freak out and be like,<br />
“shit what has happened, I need to sort this out”.<br />
[Aged 24, last tested HIV negative]<br />
”<br />
Three men <strong>report</strong>ed being the victim of non-consensual<br />
sex while under the influence of drugs, and several others<br />
<strong>report</strong>ed that their friends or acquaintances had similar<br />
experiences. In all cases this occurred when men had<br />
taken an accidental overdose of one or more drugs and<br />
they felt that other men had taken advantage of them in<br />
their vulnerable state. Non-consensual sex was <strong>report</strong>ed<br />
in a variety of settings, although one man recounted<br />
witnessing a particularly troubling incident at a private<br />
sex party.<br />
“ I went to a party and there was only one person there<br />
who was passive; everyone else was active. And it very<br />
much – I felt uncomfortable because the person who<br />
was passive was rolling around in bed, moaning and<br />
sweating, “Oh I’ve done too much G”, and he was in a<br />
real state. I didn’t feel comfortable having sex with him<br />
but I didn’t feel it would be consensual but everyone<br />
else had no problem scrabbling around on top of him.<br />
And he kept saying no. And I was like saying, “It sounds<br />
like he’s in pain.” But I just couldn’t join in, it didn’t feel<br />
right. ”<br />
[Aged 21, last tested HIV negative]<br />
Those men who had personally been the victim of nonconsensual<br />
sex were very hesitant to use the words ‘rape’<br />
or ‘sexual assault’ because of what they, and others, felt<br />
was a particularly blurry line regarding consent in the<br />
context of <strong>chemsex</strong>. None had <strong>report</strong>ed these as criminal<br />
incidents. Overdosing, particularly on GHB/GBL meant<br />
that men might drift in and out of consciousness or may<br />
cycle between pleasure and distress while having sex.<br />
“ If someone had had too much and their inhibitions<br />
are reduced and none of it is really consensual, but<br />
then none of it is against anyone’s will. I think really it<br />
goes with the situation, it goes with the territory [...]<br />
Some people are giving consent but I mean is it really<br />
consent when someone is literally on the verge of<br />
passing out? ”<br />
[Aged 24, last tested HIV negative]<br />
Men talked about hospitalisation or death related to<br />
GHB/GBL commonly arising in saunas and clubs. While<br />
some had experienced this directly, others described how<br />
it had happened to friends, or had read about it in the<br />
news. There were five men who had been hospitalised<br />
due to severe overdose and had found this experience<br />
very distressing. They described hospital staff as<br />
being censorious, as well as their own sense of shame,<br />
embarrassment and horror.<br />
‘Overdosing, particularly on GHB/GBL<br />
meant that men might drift in and out<br />
of consciousness or may cycle between<br />
pleasure and distress while having sex.’<br />
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