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is that the longer he experienced this world the more he developedan “insipid” and nonchalant attitude towards others. The longer helived the more he perceived the craftiness and sleight of men,truly no different from what Jeremiah has said (Ch. 17:9). Thus,he had come to understand the more the axiom, “familiaritybreeds contempt.” He had come to regard “insipid” his philosophyof life and golden-rule. For this reason he had not discoveredduring the scores of years of his life who truly was his bosomfriend. Indeed, he had been obsessed all along by a sort ofisolationist temperament or psychology. Was this due to the factthat so many of his brothers and sisters had deserted him at atender age, thus relegating him to a life of loneliness? For thisreason he had come to feel that no one on earth could be hisbosom friend, or ever love him. So, he wrote in his diary duringhis days in seminary:I have found my best of friendsIn the water reflection,Inside the mirror,Under the moon,Before the candleHe seemed never able to change from this isolationisttemperament. Indeed, such a psychological condition is unhealthy,such queerness is illogical. Although God had taken away hisbrothers and sisters, he had in fact given him the more accordingto Matt. 12:48-50. And though he and his wife had few children,they have many more as Scripture says, “For more are thechildren of the desolate than the children of the married wife.”Therefore his sinking into an abyss of depression all his life wasdue to none other than the error of his own thoughts. But thanksbe to God, perhaps He had purposely placed him in such anisolated, lonely situation that he might find the opportunity toknow the Truth.34