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When the Devil Drives

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'You can't know that. I didn't know it when I married Martin. Ithought I'd be able to make him happy—to make our marriage work,but I never could. And it was all my fault. I couldn't love him in <strong>the</strong>way that he wanted.' She hesitated. 'In—that way.''Are you trying to tell me you don't love me in that way ei<strong>the</strong>r?' Hespoke gently, but <strong>the</strong>re was an agonised fierceness in his eyes.'I don't know,' she said. 'I—just don't know. With Martin, I washopeless—useless. Nothing I tried to do made any difference. I didn'tknow how to help him—how to reassure him. I felt so guilty anyway,knowing I'd married him without being properly in love. I'd thought Icould pretend, at first anyway, but he guessed immediately. Heaccused me...' Tears rose hot and thick in her throat. 'It wasdreadful—a nightmare that went on and on. And I couldn't make itstop.' Her voice died away.Cal was gazing at her, horrified understanding dawning on his face.He said quietly, 'Joanna—are you saying that you and Martinnever...? That you're still a virgin?'She nodded convulsively. 'Night after night, I tried, but nothing wasany good. He knew I didn't love him properly, and it—affectedhim—his manhood.''And that's <strong>the</strong> burden you've been carrying all this time? All thatguilt—all that blame?' Cal shook his head. 'Oh, my sweet—my poorlittle love.''It was -my fault,' she said intensely. '<strong>When</strong> he went out that night, Iknew he was in a desperate state. I should have stopped him.''I doubt whe<strong>the</strong>r you could have done.' Cal's face was grave.'But I should have tried,' she insisted. 'I was just using him, and heknew it. The least I could have done was attempt to save him.'

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