Because she knew now, quite unequivocally, that she could notsubmit to Cal's demands. It was impossible—unthinkable, andalways had been. Her reaction to him in <strong>the</strong> past half-hour had shownher that with terrifying clarity.She had intended to remain bitterly aloof, scornfully immune fromhis lovemaking, granting him no more than <strong>the</strong> shell of her being.But in one brief, devastating lesson, Cal had shown her that <strong>the</strong>re wasno immunity. Those few minutes in his arms had taught her a numberof shattering truths about her own sexuality. And if she was tocomply, physically, with <strong>the</strong> cynical bargain he'd offered her, sheknew now she could not hope to remain emotionally untouched.She shook her head. It still seemed unbelievable that she could havestood <strong>the</strong>re like that, half naked—allowing him every intimacy hesought. And seeking more herself.The admission made her flinch, but it had to be faced. If he'd strippedher completely, taken here <strong>the</strong>re on <strong>the</strong> floor, she would not havedenied him.Her brain, her spirit, her sense of decency might reject him, but herbody wanted him, as simply and completely as it needed food andwater. Yet, if she did surrender to him, she would be lost forever insome destructive limbo of self-betrayal.I could never forgive myself, she thought, shivering.Somehow <strong>the</strong> money to pay him off had to be raised, and Joanna drewa deep, painful breath as she reviewed <strong>the</strong> magnitude of <strong>the</strong> taskahead of <strong>the</strong>m.Yet <strong>the</strong>re must still be avenues left to explore, in spite of what Simonhad said. They could not afford to be pessimistic. There was too muchat stake for that.
There was her mo<strong>the</strong>r's jewellery for a start, she thought, wincing. Ithad been left, divided between <strong>the</strong>m, and Simon had made Fiona agift of his share when <strong>the</strong>y married. But if Joanna was reluctantlyprepared to sell her share, <strong>the</strong>re was no guarantee her sister-in-lawwould do <strong>the</strong> same, at least, not without <strong>the</strong> kind of explanationsSimon most wanted to avoid.And <strong>the</strong>re was no way in which her fa<strong>the</strong>r could be approached, evenin his most lucid moments, she told herself adamantly. Simon and shehad agreed that his income had to remain sacrosanct, devoted to hisneeds, paying <strong>the</strong> wages of Gresham and Nanny who cared for himwith such unremitting devotion.And anyway, how could <strong>the</strong>y confess that Simon had recklesslyjeopardised <strong>the</strong>ir remaining security by mortgaging it to CalBlackstone of all people? Heaven only knew what <strong>the</strong> shock of thatmight do to Anthony Chalfont and his precarious hold on reality.Meanwhile, in <strong>the</strong> short term her safest, in fact, her only course was toavoid being alone with Cal Blackstone in private again.But that was easier said than done, she thought, frowning. She wouldhave to play a cat-and-mouse game of her own, if she was to avoid hiscompany without alerting his suspicions.If he guessed for one minute what she was doing, <strong>the</strong>n his wrathwould fall on Simon, setting in train moves to bankrupt him, sofinding alternative finance—and fast—was absolutely crucial.I'll get toge<strong>the</strong>r with Simon this evening, she decided, restarting <strong>the</strong>car. And we'll discuss quietly, and without acrimony, what's to bedone. There has to be some solution we haven't considered yet. Therejust has to be.And now that she was back, she was determined to play a much largerpart than before in <strong>the</strong> running of <strong>the</strong> Craft Company, where her first
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WHEN THE DEVILDRIVESSara Craven
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CHAPTER ONE'SIMON, you don't—you
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Because Cal Blackstone wasn't inter
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Joanna bit her lip hard. It was Phi
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ack in his face, for God's sake.' H
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'Here?' Joanna stared at him, appal
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Know your enemy, had been one of Jo
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By the time she'd fetched the jack,
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Joanna sniffed delicately, grimacin
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'Ah, but it will,' he said softly.
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CHAPTER TWOTHE mist swirled thickly
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'After all,' Fiona had often pouted
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As she heard the doorbell peal, she
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She didn't want to hear any more. H
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'That's our business.' Joanna wonde
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'That woman has got to go,' Mrs Dri
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Anthony Chalfont stirred in his une
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CHAPTER NINETHERE was darkness all
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'Perhaps,' Joanna said evenly. 'But
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It was the same receptionist at the
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She stared at him. 'Why—everythin
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een sheer hell for them both. He pr
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In between kisses, they spoke the f
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'There's no need.' His hand gently
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'No, my darling.' Cal looked at her