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Brain Go BOOM!<br />
Author/Survivor: John Cooper<br />
platter. They were extremely pissed off at me but that’s what worked for the new me; it just<br />
didn’t work for them. In one of my testing scenarios, I took Laura off guard and in reactionary<br />
horror, she grabbed the device, threw it against the garage floor where it smashed into pieces.<br />
For my own safety, I don’t use my family members as test subjects anymore.<br />
My time management skills and abilities were, and still are, a wreck. I had to set alarms<br />
or reminders on my iPhone and iPad to remind me to set more alarms and reminders. It’s what<br />
seemed to work best for me but it mentally drained me. There were a multitude of chimes<br />
ringing from my devices two dozen times a day. It sounds like common sense to set one alarm,<br />
but some things aren’t so common nor do they make much sense either. For some reason, I<br />
unintentionally, and what would appear to many people, ignore the alerts. It’s not an excuse.<br />
If I have to be somewhere at 9:00 am and it takes me a half an hour to get there, with<br />
fifteen minutes to shower and get ready, I go bolting out the door at the very last second. All too<br />
often I am late. So why wouldn’t I start getting ready at 8:00 or 8:15? That part of my brain<br />
doesn’t work very well; it’s as if it’s dead! I battle with this every day. This adds much<br />
unwanted strain on me and my family while also increasing my anxiety to the point where I<br />
don’t want to go out at all. I become depressed because I feel like I’m a failure. It sounds like<br />
common sense, just set you alarms and pay attention John! I have all good intentions of sticking<br />
to my plan and getting out the door on time and yet it just doesn’t happen unless somebody is<br />
yelling at me to get ready. I take everything up to the last minute. I wish it was intentional so I<br />
could address it in a more reasonable manner or just make up some dumb excuse, but it’s not<br />
intentional. It’s a part of my new normal.<br />
It seems as if this new Johnny thrives on some form of self-inflicted pressure. It’s not<br />
like that—I actually hate it. I wrote about eighty percent of this book under pressure. I could<br />
only write when something needed to be done or when we needed to be somewhere. I take<br />
things down to the wire while Laura or the girls yell, “Let’s go! We have to leave in seven<br />
minutes. You didn’t even get a shower yet?” Only after this will I quickly shower, change and<br />
scatter about the house, set up my booby traps and hop in the car. When I finally get into the car,<br />
I run back into the house one or two times because I’ve either forgotten my medications, my<br />
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