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Selected Writings & Artwork by Harriett Copeland Lillard
Selected Writings & Artwork by Harriett Copeland Lillard
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I love old women who smoke. I mean old women, not older women. It displays,<br />
panache, rebellion, and a delightfully cavalier attitude towards the world’s shoulds<br />
and should nots. Of course, it’s bad for them, but what the hell! They’ve survived this<br />
long smoking, why quit now? What’s another year or two off your life expectancy if<br />
you’re already eighty? People without vices are crashing bores!<br />
…<br />
Her name was Rosie. She sat in front of me at the cafeteria. Her hair was a yellow<br />
white and she wore it, not in the typical old lady style but short, bobbed, and turned<br />
up at the ends. Her face had wrinkled together as if it had been a mask of paper<br />
someone had crumpled up. Her long thin patrician nose and high cheek bones<br />
revealed the striking woman she once had been. Osteoporosis had taken its toll and<br />
she was badly bent and used a cane to steady herself when she walked.<br />
I loved her the minute she lit the cigarette. Her hands were thin, the tendons on the<br />
back sharply delineated, the fingers long and elegant as she held the cigarette. I<br />
would love to know her. Know her joys and pains, her successes and failures.<br />
Somehow she convinced me that she had lived, that nothing had escaped her sharp,<br />
intelligent eyes.<br />
Just think, if she started smoking 50 or 60 years ago, it took great courage to defy<br />
conventions and light up. This says something about her personality both then and<br />
now. It implies a gusto for life, a willingness to take risks. It makes her more human<br />
somehow. Perhaps smoking was a vice she came to late in life. If so, all the more<br />
interesting to do something so risky at such a late date.<br />
For some of us, like Rosie, life is to live, not merely extend.<br />
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