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Music helps me...
I have been fascinated with Music for as long as I can
remember, my mother told me stories of how she used to unplug the stereo
to stop me from playing records in the middle of the night when I was 2
years old, only for me to plug it back in and carry on, waking up neighbours
and leaving her to explain to them that the toddler was the one to blame, I
was clearly hooked.
Music for me is so many things, as a whole it's unlike anything else I know, it
sets moods, explains and portrays emotions, helps expression, unites
people.
Sometimes I use music as a form of therapy to reflect on and deal with
emotions, find a sequence of chords that fits my mood and play for as long
as I need to feel resolve, I suppose something about the notes singing my
own feelings back to me creates a feeling of understanding.
Music helps me focus on work, I find that listening to instrumental music,
especially from something with warm memories, like an old computer game
that I played as a kid, is not only relaxing, but also somewhat engaging and
motivating.
Music helps me out of bad spells of anxiety, since late 2016 I have suffered
with both anxiety and panic attacks, which can descend my normally clear
thinking mind into a struggle for control and worst case leave me wondering
if I will see another day, there have been many times where listening to
music has diverted my attention and brought me back to normality.
Just last night my wife and I were at Bluedot festival in Manchester to see
The Chemical Brothers headline, of course they were absolutely amazing as
always, after a fair amount of beer and cider (which surely played a role in
this) we were jumping up and down in arms with total strangers, everyone
smiling, letting the euphoria take over and screaming our enjoyment at each
other as if we were all best mates, I don't even know their names, how many
times have I been in the same situation with Music? How many times have I
been in the same situation with anything else?
Is there any art form more exciting? More able to elicit emotion? More
helpful? More universal? Not for me there isnt, what a gift it is.
- Rdubz
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