VL-Issue 44- July 22
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STEPPING FORWARD<br />
Pass the Test<br />
BY KRISTI OVERTON JOHNSON<br />
FOR MONTHS, THE LORD HAD BEEN impressing<br />
on my heart the importance of integrity and being<br />
thorough. “Take no shortcuts, Kristi. Shortcuts open<br />
doors the enemy can walk through to wreak havoc in<br />
your life and ministry.” I had received these words with<br />
great enthusiasm. But then the test came, and I failed.<br />
I knew it was wrong the moment it went down. It felt<br />
secretive and was prefaced with the words, “If someone<br />
asks how you got this, just say _______.” There was a<br />
process I was supposed to go through, and I knew it. But<br />
the process was tedious and could result in a negative<br />
outcome, so when this mighty man of God offered the<br />
shortcut, I told the little voice in my head to be quiet<br />
and took it.<br />
It’s not that what was being offered was bad. It was an<br />
amazing gift. And if I were to reveal it to you, you might<br />
think it was nothing. But trivial or not, it was eating<br />
me alive!<br />
I wrestled with conviction for days. To make myself<br />
feel better, I cast blame: “I didn’t ask for what I got;<br />
he gave it to me.” I justified having the gift with, “I needed<br />
it. This is a good thing, a God-thing even! People will<br />
be so blessed by it.” And they were.<br />
The week went on and I tried to convince myself that<br />
God had provided it to our ministry. “Surely the Lord<br />
has given me the desires of my heart. I just prayed about<br />
this very thing, and now I have it! This is a blessing from<br />
heaven!” I thanked the Lord for such a beautiful gift.<br />
But the Holy Spirit continued to poke away at my conscience<br />
until the goodness of God led me to repentance<br />
(Romans 2:4). Repentance happened when I chose to<br />
set aside my justification, reasoning, and blame and<br />
ask the Lord for His perspective on the matter. There,<br />
in the quiet, God revealed His truth in love.<br />
I saw clearly that what I had done was wrong. I had<br />
skipped the proper process, ignored the inner voice<br />
of conviction, and put my reputation and the ministry<br />
God had entrusted to me at risk. Not only that, but I<br />
had credited God with answering my prayer in a shady<br />
way. I mean, come on! He is a holy God who does what<br />
is right. He doesn’t lurk around in the shadows to bring<br />
about what I need.<br />
Busted and exposed, I fell to my knees and repented.<br />
“Lord, You’re right. What I did was wrong. My actions<br />
set a terrible example to others, and I’m sorry. Please forgive me.” I<br />
felt sick to my stomach.<br />
You can believe guilt arrived on the scene quickly. But then I remembered<br />
that God’s conviction is rooted in His love for me, not<br />
anger or disappointment. He had revealed my sin to bring correction,<br />
protection, and promotion—not condemnation. God didn’t want me<br />
to waste precious time wallowing in shame; He wanted me to learn<br />
from my mistake and move forward better. If I was genuinely sorry,<br />
then God had already forgiven me (1 John 1:9).<br />
WALK FAITHFULLY, DO THINGS GOD’S WAY,<br />
AND TRUST HIS TIMING. DOING SO WILL<br />
PROVE YOUR LOVE FOR THE FATHER AND<br />
POSITION YOU FOR GREATER THINGS.<br />
Either I believed His Word and trusted His love, or I didn’t.<br />
I am thankful for God’s love, and out of my love for Him, I want<br />
to pass the next integrity test. I want to prove to the Lord I can be<br />
trusted in the smallest of details. I want to live a life above reproach,<br />
so no man can bring an accusation (1 Peter 2:12). God forbid I take a<br />
shortcut that gives Satan an opening to attack the work God is doing<br />
(Ephesians 4:26–27).<br />
Friend, there are blessings on the other side of integrity. Don’t take<br />
a shortcut. It’s not worth it. Walk faithfully, do things God’s way, and<br />
trust His timing. Doing so will prove your love for the Father and<br />
position you for greater things (Luke 16:10).<br />
KRISTI OVERTON JOHNSON encourages and equips people for victory<br />
through her writings, speaking engagements, and prison ministry. To learn more,<br />
go to kojministries.org.<br />
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