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not sure I would know how to live without<br />
it. I am well aware that my choices today<br />
impact people I will never meet on this side<br />
of heaven. I strive daily to live a life that my<br />
kids will want to model. The funny thing<br />
is that no matter how hard I try, I usually<br />
feel like a failure at the end of the day. And<br />
these failures taunt me. My response is<br />
to work harder and try to do better. It’s a<br />
weighty burden.<br />
When God and I set out on our journey<br />
together, I remembered Matthew 11:28–30<br />
(NIV), where Jesus says, “Come to me, all<br />
you who are weary and burdened, and I will<br />
give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and<br />
learn from me, for I am gentle and humble<br />
in heart, and you will find rest for your<br />
souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden<br />
is light.”<br />
These verses helped me understand<br />
that the pressure I live under is not from<br />
God; it is self-imposed. His purposes for<br />
my life will never weigh me down, nor will<br />
they create anxiety, self-condemnation,<br />
or pressure. They also won’t invoke fear,<br />
doubt, or confusion.<br />
If I am under these things, then I must<br />
be under something other than the will of<br />
God. There is freedom, peace, and order<br />
wherever the Lord is—not bondage, fear,<br />
and chaos. (See 1 Corinthians 14:33; 2<br />
Timo thy 1:7; 2 Corinthians 3:17.)<br />
I’m not responsible for everyone’s life<br />
outcome. Each individual is accountable<br />
for their own choices. I’m also not responsible<br />
for being everyone’s provider and<br />
solving their problems. That’s God’s job.<br />
And my taking on these responsibilities<br />
is me trying to play God.<br />
Here’s a fresh revelation: I’m not God! I<br />
can’t tell you how freeing it is to let go of<br />
that responsibility.<br />
That doesn’t mean God doesn’t want me<br />
to care for others. I am His hands and feet<br />
on this earth, and I am called to serve and<br />
give. But He is teaching me that I’m not<br />
responsible for people; I am responsible<br />
to them. My role is to live a life of integrity<br />
and to operate in my giftings as I serve,<br />
love, and honor those around me.<br />
To put it simply: God is calling me to<br />
focus on being, not doing.<br />
The greatest thing I can do for others<br />
is to be a surrendered child of God; the<br />
rest will take care of itself (Matthew 6:33).<br />
He calls me to trust Him (Proverbs 3:5–6)<br />
and release my loved ones to His care. God<br />
loves my family and staff more than I do,<br />
and His plan and provision for them will<br />
not fail.<br />
I’ve already told you that my motive for<br />
doing has been to prove my worth. But the<br />
Lord has also revealed the driving force<br />
behind that motive: fear. Deep down, I need<br />
to prove I am somebody because I am desperately<br />
afraid that I am nobody.<br />
If I fail, I’m afraid I’ll prove that what my<br />
classmates, a former boss, and even some<br />
family members said about me was right.<br />
They said I’d be poor and never amount to<br />
anything, that my ideas were stupid, and<br />
that I’d fall flat on my face. I strive because<br />
I’m terrified that what they said will become<br />
my reality. I also fear I’ll fail my wife<br />
and children.<br />
But a fear-based, performance-driven<br />
life is not what God intends for His children<br />
to experience. That’s Satan’s desire.<br />
God has never asked any of us to prove<br />
our worth.<br />
Before we accomplished one thing in<br />
this world, He exchanged His Son’s life for<br />
ours (John 3:16). The Lord’s love for us has<br />
never been based on what we do but on<br />
who we are—His children. And what we<br />
do isn’t what pleases Him either. It’s how<br />
we trust Him that matters (Hebrews 11:6).<br />
I’m thankful for these revelations and all<br />
the others. And I am committed to allowing<br />
the Lord to work in my life. I do want<br />
to experience His freedom and rest, but<br />
I’m finding that a learning experience too.<br />
Like I’ve said, I work nonstop. I have for<br />
years. I don’t understand people who don’t<br />
want to work or who give excuses why they<br />
can’t work. But God is teaching me that<br />
working nonstop isn’t His intention either.<br />
Rest is good, and God commands us to do<br />
so. It’s the fourth commandment. Even God<br />
rested from His work (Genesis 2:2–3).<br />
Still, if I’m not working, I wrestle with<br />
feeling guilty, lazy, and unproductive. I feel<br />
like I’m not being a man and providing for<br />
my family. The Lord is helping me work<br />
Jay and his wife, Eri,<br />
stay busy working<br />
but often sneak away<br />
for fun.<br />
through these patterns of wrong thinking.<br />
He is teaching me to find balance in<br />
my life—not just for me, but for the sake<br />
of my family.<br />
My constant going keeps my loved ones<br />
on the move too. And the pressure I’m<br />
under seeps into their lives whether I intend<br />
it to or not. We are all weary. My wife<br />
and teenage son work ridiculously hard<br />
and long hours. Our family bounces from<br />
restaurant to restaurant, event to event.<br />
As you can see, I am learning much<br />
about myself and the why behind my what.<br />
And I am sure God will have a lot more to<br />
show me in His time as He helps me become<br />
who He created me to be. I’m excited<br />
for God to transform me into a new person<br />
as I change how I think. Then I’ll be able<br />
to experience His will, which is good and<br />
pleasing and perfect. (See Romans 12:2.)<br />
Perhaps today, you are under heavy<br />
burdens and being attacked by fear. Like<br />
me, you’re afraid that people’s words and<br />
thoughts about you will come true. God<br />
wants to help you be free of your burdens<br />
and escape the turmoil. Jesus’s promise of<br />
rest is for you too. Lay your burdens down,<br />
my friend. Right here at Jesus’s feet.<br />
JAY BASTARDO is on mission to discover his<br />
identity in Christ. He and his family serve their<br />
community through authentic Dominican food and<br />
heartfelt service while living out God’s agape love<br />
to the world.<br />
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