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otherwise, it's all pretence. If the unknown woman had gone to live abroad, she would be beyond his<br />
reach, she might as well be dead Full stop end of the story murmured Senhor José then he thought, that<br />
might not be the case, for when she departed! she would at least have left a life behind her, perhaps only a<br />
brief life four years five almost nothing or fifteen or twenty a meeting, an infatuation, a disappointment, a<br />
few smiles, a few tears, which seem, at first sight, the same for everyone but which are, in fact, different<br />
for us all. And different each time too. I'll go as far as I can, concluded Senhor José, with unaccustomed<br />
serenity. As if this were the logical conclusion to what he had thought, he went into a stationer's and<br />
bought a thick notebook with lined pages, like the ones students use to make notes on their school<br />
subjects, believing that they are actually learning them as they do so.<br />
It didn't take him long to forge some credentials. Twenty-five years of daily calligraphic practice<br />
beneath the vigilance of zealous senior clerks and demanding deputies had left him with complete mastery<br />
of fingers, wrist and palm, absolute confidence in executing both curved lines and straight, an almost<br />
instinctive feel for thick and thin strokes, a consummate awareness of the degree of fluidity and viscosity<br />
of various inks, which, put to the test on this occasion, resulted in a document capable of resisting the<br />
scrutiny of the most powerful of magnifying lenses. <strong>The</strong> only incriminating features were his fingerprints<br />
and the invisible traces of sweat that clung to the paper, but the likelihood of either of these being<br />
examined was, of course, negligible. <strong>The</strong> most competent graphologist called to testify would swear that<br />
the document in question was written by the Registrar himself and was as authentic as if it had been<br />
written in the presence of appropriate witnesses. In support of his worthy colleague's opinion, a<br />
psychologist would add that the content of the letter, the style and the vocabulary offer ample proof that its<br />
author is an extremely authoritarian person, with a harsh, inflexible, secretive nature, convinced of the<br />
Tightness of his own views, scornful of other people's opinions, as even a child would conclude from<br />
reading the text, which says, In the name of the authority conferred on me and which, under oath, I uphold,<br />
apply and defend, I, as Registrar of the Central Registry, declare to all those, be they civil or military,<br />
private or public, who might see, read and examine this letter written and signed by my own hand, that<br />
Senhor so-and-so, a clerk in my service and in the service of the Central Registry which I direct, govern<br />
and administer, has received directly from me the order and commission to find out and investigate<br />
everything regarding the life, past, present and future, of so-and-so, born in this city on such and such a<br />
date, daughter of so-and-so and such and such, and it should be recognised, with no further proof being<br />
required, that, for the duration of the investigation, he is in possession of the absolute powers which I, in<br />
this document and to this end, delegate to him. This is the express wish of the Central Registry and of my<br />
own will. So be it. Trembling with fear, having barely managed to read to the end of this impressive bit of<br />
paper, the above-mentioned child took refuge on her mother's lap, wondering how a clerk like Senhor<br />
José, so timid by nature, so mild in his manners, could possibly have conceived of, imagined, invented<br />
this expression of, to say the very least, despotic power, with no previous model to use as a guide, since<br />
there is no norm nor was there any technical need for the Central Registry ever to have written such a<br />
letter of authority. <strong>The</strong> frightened child will have to eat a lot of bread and a lot of salt before she begins to<br />
learn from life, by then, she will no longer be surprised to discover that, when the occasion arises, even<br />
the good can become hard and tyrannical, even if only in order to write a letter of authority, forged or<br />
otherwise. <strong>The</strong>y will say to excuse themselves, That wasn't me, I was just writing, acting in the name of<br />
someone else, and they are probably just trying to delude themselves, for, in truth, whether visible or not,<br />
that hardness and despotism, not to say cruelty, came from within them, not from someone else. Even so,<br />
judging what has happened up until now by its effects, it is unlikely that the world will be seriously<br />
damaged by Senhor José's intentions and future actions, therefore let us provisionally suspend judgement<br />
until other events, more enlightening, in both the good and the bad senses, draw us a definitive portrait.<br />
On Saturday, wearing his best suit, with his shirt washed and ironed, his tie almost matching and more<br />
or less correct, the envelope bearing the official seal and containing the letter of authority safe in his