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Senhor José got cold during the night. After having uttered those redundant, useless words, Here she<br />
is, he wasn't sure what else he should do. It was true that, after long and arduous labours, he had managed,<br />
at last, to find the unknown woman, or rather, the place where she lay, a good six feet beneath an earth that<br />
still sustained him, but, he thought to himself, the normal response would be to feel afraid, fearful of the<br />
place, the hour, the rustling trees, the mysterious moonlight, and, in particular, of the strange cemetery<br />
surrounding him, an assembly of suicides, a gathering of silences that, from one moment to the next, might<br />
begin to scream, We came before our time was due, our own will brought us here, but what he felt inside<br />
him seemed more like indecision, doubt, as if, just when he thought he had reached the end of everything,<br />
he realised that his search was not yet finished, as if having come here were merely another point on the<br />
journey, of no more importance than the ground-floor apartment belonging to the elderly lady, or the<br />
school, or the chemist's where he had gone to ask questions, or the archive in the Central Registry where<br />
they kept the papers of the dead. He was so overcome by this feeling that he even muttered, as if trying to<br />
convince himself, She's dead, there's nothing more I can do, there's nothing anyone can do about death.<br />
For long hours he had walked through the General Cemetery, he had passed through epochs, eras,<br />
dynasties, through kingdoms, empires and republics, through wars and epidemics, through infinite<br />
numbers of disparate deaths, beginning with the first sorrow felt by humanity and ending with this woman<br />
who had committed suicide only a few days ago, Senhor José, therefore, knows all too well that there is<br />
nothing anyone can do about death. On that walk made up of so many dead, not one of them got up when<br />
they heard him pass, not one begged him to help them reunite the scattered dust of their flesh with the<br />
bones fallen from their sockets, not one asked him, Come and breathe into my eyes the breath of life, they<br />
know all too well that there is nothing anyone can do about death, they know it, we all know it, but, in that<br />
case, where does it come from, this feeling of angst that grips Senhor José's throat, this unease of mind, as<br />
if he had cravenly abandoned a half-completed task and now did not know how to return to it with any<br />
dignity. On the other side of the stream, not far off, one can see a few houses with the windows lit, the<br />
moribund lights of the street lamps in the suburbs, the fleeting beam of a car passing on the road. And<br />
immediately ahead, only thirty paces away, as sooner or later had to happen, a small bridge joins the two<br />
banks of the stream, so Senhor José won't have to take off his shoes and roll up his trouser legs when he<br />
wants to cross to the other side. In normal circumstances he would have done so a long time ago,<br />
especially since we know he is not a person of great courage, courage he is going to need if he is to<br />
survive a whole night in a cemetery unscathed, with a dead person lying beneath his feet and a moonlight<br />
capable of making shadows walk. <strong>The</strong> circumstances, however, are these and no others, here it is not a<br />
question of courage or cowardice, here it is a matter of life and death, which is why Senhor José, despite<br />
knowing that he will often feel afraid during the night, despite knowing that the sighing of the wind will<br />
terrify him that at dawn the cold fallen from the sky will join forces with the cold rising from the earth,<br />
Senhor José is going to sit down beneath a tree, huddled up in the shelter of a providential hollow trunk.<br />
He turns up his jacket collar, makes himself as small as possible in order to retain the warmth of his body,<br />
folds his arms so that his hands are in his armpits, and prepares to wait for day. He can feel his stomach<br />
asking him for food, but he takes no notice, no one ever died from going for a while without eating<br />
between meals, except when the second meal was so long in being served that it did not appear in time to<br />
be served at all. Senhor José wants to know if it really is all over, or if, on the contrary, there is still<br />
something he has forgotten to do, or, more important, something that he had never even considered before<br />
and that might turn out to be, after all, the essence of the strange adventure into which chance had plunged<br />
him. He had looked for the unknown woman everywhere, and had found her here, beneath that little mound